First off, I've gone to school late twice in a row. which I never experienced before? on Monday, I posted a weird post about what shrugging would bring to a person; that happened because I was late.
Tuesday, God's mercy was on me. I got past w/o being denda-ed. But I failed to pass up my Chinese Essay book. result of laziness. xD
On Wednesday, I stayed back to read up some of the books for 'Read and be Rewarded' program but apparently, the teachers were having their meeting up in the library. So I wasted one whole afternoon, doing nothing except for nothing. decided to finish up my homeworks on that day but slept through the whole afternoon + night. no tuition mahh ! 9:
Thursday, I stayed back again for the program but only managed to finish three books in school because I went up late due to reasons which I think I should not disclose. borrowed 2 books but didn't read it at all/finish my homework either because I was busy watching Lilo & Stitch in between the time of when having a duel with my kakak in badminton and reaching home by bus.
Friday (or yesterday), reached home at 4pm because my sister was practicing in school for choir presentation on Hari Pameran (28/07/08). I went to the prayer meeting during that time and I saw yvonne the sotong cried! bwahahahahahahahha. switched on to my blog when I reached home for a while and found no obvious visitors. ]: so, switched off the computer and went jogging. that sweet feeling of running despite being almost out of breathe still rocks! bathed and walked up to HSG to find Jun Fai and a pink shirt guy waiting. They were about to fetch
me to a party in Wisma FGA.
I got to meet loads of people that I've heard their names from either Beh or yvonne the sotong for the past 2 or 3 weeks! for example:
-Richard (the one that claim to be 25 yrs old; which also say I have a beautiful name ((: )
- Xue Qi (the song leader and the one that called me to attend another function tonight; which of course was rejected)
- YeQi (the one whom prayed for me during alter call.. come to think of it, why did she came to me only? -.- )
- Cui Wen (?) ( the super leng lui 18 yrs old which doesn't looks like an 18 yrs old)
- Xing Hui/Deborah ( the one I find most interesting HAHAHAHA )
then there were others too which I can't remember their names because I never asked. xD
Loads of non-Christians came which accepted Christ after that. God's grace was DEFINITELY with us! Praise The Lord for that!! But when Li Feng (?) hit the hammer against the giant nail (sth to do with the msg he shared), it sent bolts of electricity down my spines and I dunno, my heart ached with agony? I was practically screaming in my head, 'DON'T HIT IT ANYMORE.' I was on the edge of crying, ah Beh was also. (:
During the alter call, something popped into my head what popped through every time during worship for the past few months, 'where are you, Lord?' for months, I've pushed that thought to the back of my head by replacing this senteces, 'where am I, Lord?' but everytime during worship it would be the same sentence that popped up first, then only I'll replace it. But was it right? was it right to replace it and do nothing about it?
then Ye Qi suddenly appeared and asked me if she could pray for me. that night's message was about the son that demanded his share of the family's fortune and went travelling but wasted all his money and decided to go back to his father. it's in Luke 15, go find yourselves if you're interested in the story. -.- this Ye Qi asked me out of all the questions she could ask, 'do you feel like God's not by your side everytime you pray/when you're doing your daily routine?' well, duh. of course I said yes. so she prayed.
after I off my phone because Alvin was bugging me, I silently asked, 'so, I was expecting that I could sense you now just like I could sense a being beside me after that prayer, now how come there isn't anything?' I waited for a while and raising my inner voice a little, 'where are You?'
silence.
I got impatient and shouted in my heart, 'WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU?! you promised to be there when I asked, so WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU???!!!' yeah, I was practically swearing. but I was cutted off by Li Feng for ending the song they were singing and started asking around for testimonies by the new Christians. During that time, Ye Qi asked me, 'why were you crying?'
what was I supposed to say? anyways, I said, 'I dunno.' and waited for a while before I continued, 'because for a very long time already whenever I'm worshipping God I would be asking, 'O Lord, where are you?' ' then she cut off my sentence by replying, 'the Bible said do not test Your God, you should have faith! why you were crying was because God touched your heart.'
you know what I said in return? I think she got a shock.
I told her, 'why I was actually crying was because I still couldn't know for sure if He was there..' she said, 'hmmm? impossible. there's no other reason than why you would suddenly cry when you're speaking to me (my voice was quivering when I attempted to finish my sentence), correct? That proves that God is already here with you.'
then before I could say anything, Li Feng turned to me and asked, 'what about over there? hmm?'
Silence.
I was asking Ye Qi, 'what should I say? O.o' then Li Feng told everyone, 'I know her from our Sentosa's Fridays prayer meeting, she attends that meeting. *turn to me* yes, can we hear from you?' I think Ye Qi was more time-conscious than me so she took the microphone from me and spoke what she said to me. and left out the part where I said I still didn't know for sure where God was. pffffft.
anyway after that sotong and Beh ran up to me after service and shouted in my ears, 'I LOVE YOU!!!!!' O.o okay, okay. I love you guys too, but why are you guys telling me that? then the rest of the night was of BLANK.
this morning (or Saturday), I woke up in a daze with full boost energy that kept me skipping through the whole day. helped out with the preperation for Hari Pameran for both Nature Society and Scripture Union from 8am till 4pm. Scripture Union's Heaven's side's angels are really cute! but they kept falling off the ceiling because the fan was too strong. then Joshua said, 'they are fallen angels! God banished them from heaven!' LOL.
then it was already 4pm when everyone called me one after another, continuously, making me walking in and out of the classroom more frequent than the wind would. Sheou Jun and Alvin was waiting in the canteen by the time I walked down. then suddenly yvonne and jingQi appeared and called all of sapo 6 together to take picture ::
my hair was flying all over the place AND my head was too huge!; they all looked SO happy!!
eh. I was the odd one out. zomg.
my personal favourite picture. (:
after making Sheou Jun and Alvin wait for a very long time, we finally set off to Sunway Pyramid! to give moral support to mr. Lee Tai Foong , he and his school mates took part in the Young-something-something-something. xD then Alvin was cheated into buying 2 "stress ball". so they call it.
then Foong left us three alone to walk arnd Sunway which caused SUPER damage to my foot soles, which still hurts now. anyway, summing every single event up, we wandered like lost souls, ate "lunch" at Station Kopitiam, and I got to eat my ah-ne-ne egg. xP *inside joke, don't bother to ask*
had been CENTURIES since I've last tasted them. (: but the workers there didn't let ME do the breaking egg part. I would've loved to do so.
we went into Anime-tech, a comic book store, and Tower Records after that. then it was 8.30pm already, fast eh? so we went back with Sheou Jun's dad dropping us off at the Central Hypermarket's bus station. Thank the Lord for that, if not we would be waiting in the dark for a U76 to appear. haha!
when we were waiting for Sheou Jun's dad to come, Alvin bursted one of the "stress ball" he bought just a couple of hours before. which Foong assured that it would definitely not break. xD
see blue pants with white powder?
In the car, I spotted something beautiful : my knapsack was the EXACT same football team as the shirt-like-pillow in Sheou Jun's dad's car was. blogger said max upload 5 pictures per time. and I'm lazy to upload again, so.. no picture! (: I've got a picture of it though, thanks to Alvin's phone's flash camera. pfft.
then I started thinking of the previous night's incident when I convinced myself into believing that God was a million miles away from me. my brain analysed things differently tonight. I'm thinking I'm being too based on feelings alone.
Feelings. pfffft. why do women rely on such a thing? It somehow seems stupid to me, all of a sudden. Ps. Reuben once preached about feeling things; of how stupid it is to rely on such when it comes to God. Is that what he said? If I've misquoted, I'm terribly sorry. but I've learnt a thing, Faith. I've finally understood what Ye Qi tried to say. LOL.
to have such simple faith of knowing that the presence of God is amongst us. Emmanuel. you don't need a feeling to know whether He's there or not, why must He proof to you that He's there? why must He do so every single worship session? Wouldn't it be something like when you learn how to ride a bicycle and your mom/dad would hold the bicycle all throughout your life of when you cycle, giving you assurance that they're there? mom/dad loves me. mom/dad wants me to learn how to ride a bicycle. same as it is, Jesus loves me. Jesus wants me to learn how to ride on life with my faith streghtened.
He will ALWAYS be there. A spectator, guiding me. guiding you. when we fall, He will stretch out His arms and pull us up; just like how your mom/dad would do when you're learning how to ride a bicycle - he/she will let go without telling you, and when you fall off, they will rush over and help you up, insisting that you continue, so that you'll learn.
and I'm glad enough to know that. all praise goes to Jesus. (: Amen.
Thus ends my blog post.
are you by any chance dozing off already? xD thousand apologies then, I just had to tell the world this news I've got.
I pray that the Hari Pameran will be effective, and will suceed in educating people in knowing more about heaven and hell.
God bless. (:
signed with love,
Rebecca.
p.s. days are coloured through reference from here.
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