multi-purpose post!

it's so funny how when people tell me how much they look up to me or how much they wish they were like me. believe me, I'm not bragging. but it's just so weird because I know myself how many things I have that I don't consider as even a quality. I'm still a kid, there are still so many more to learn. I don't understand why would people wish to be like me, it's so funny.

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HAPPY SIXTEENTH BIRTHDAY , WEN LI!

yes yes I know it's going to be mine soon but let me enjoy being young for the time being. uh, HMM. so let's see if you read my blog often enough to read this post. xD to a girl I've known since primary but had never gotten close to. I wonder why people can know a person for so long yet not know the person well. it astounds me sometimes. anyway! I bet she's enjoying her trip in ,, Melbourne is it? ahh well.

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it was Samurai Sudoku Championship yesterday in Ikano!

p/s that was the finals!!

and the result of that is that I ate 2 McValue meal number 1 twice in a day. at the same spot -- in front of the pc screen. I can hear Abby from Beauty and the Best ringing in my ears now, in her lovely Liverpool accent , '.. what kind of a freak would walk right into McDonalds twice in a month?'

I love Him,

more than ever now.

nothing can surpass what is of His.

my God is good,

All the time.

a dedication.

"I used to think that life was just an awful song",
but now I knew I was oh-so wrong;
I used to think about how unfair it all seemed,
just to find out now it's how the Earth is since beginning.

why, what do you know?
afterall it's a broken place polluted by sin.

I used to love the idea of running away,
but won't it just make things more broken that way?
Through His strength the weak shall be strong,
so I'm strengthening up my spirit,
cause the battle I fight is not of flesh and blood.

I urge you brothers,
strengthen up your spirits too,
because he who destroys will not rest;
so neither shall we, warriors of God, shall rest.

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my dearest ******, (shall not state the name in case you're not happy with name stating)

life on Earth. it's full of hardships and obstacles and stuff that are unpleasant to equip you for Eternity. (Isoundlikeanoldperson) but just keep in mind then that we are all here for you, well, at least you have me (and you're stuck with me), and I'm sure there will be loads of them too just that I can't state their names for you now because uh.. I'm not them..? then when you've got enough of all the brokenness remember that God had chose you first, knowing already what will be of you. and His choice will never change unless you refuse to choose Him. and even if you refuse to choose Him, He will continue knocking on your door, asking and asking for you.

and also to that, Jesus said that you could change your depression for His joy. there's a very good perdagangan there leh. ^-^

you, ****** (still not going to state the name) , are made in God's image. no matter how lousy/stupid/useless/bad you think you are, God sees things differently, and He sees your potential despite your flaws. well, if you ask me what good I see in you, I see that you have the ability of attracting people to you . the things you said about jingqi and karr man being able to befriend people easily -- I see that you can do that too, just that you don't realise it yourself. buckle up, sister!

I have faith in you, really. your lovely leader definitely have faith in you! your friends have faith in you. so show the devil what you're made of and make God proud. make your Daddy in heaven proud. I'll be cheering you on all the way. throughout your life on Earth. (: uhm.. that's if you havent got sick of me yet and throw me out the window lah. I love you!! Jesus love you! God love you! (can go on a whole list about this so shall stop now)

for experience!

I'm here. midnight. blogging. more importantly, online.

and to find that people don't sleep. I see people who are on the net as early as I am and still on right this instant. which is weird. very. very weird. okayishouldstoptheveryveryveryswhatever. YES! sooo..

my experience to this late-night online thing is

1. I feel itchy all over. but that's normal cuz my system dont work properly during the night.
2. I feel hungry. geez that means i'm going to gulp in more carbs, which is bad. bad for me.
3. looking at John walking around the hall aimlessly.
4. playing a lot of neopets. I wonder why I never get bored of that game?

gah i'm so sick of typing now. I'm like typing so much in chat boxes that .. well, I'm sick of itlah! maybe I'll come by back tomorrow. :D

what a wonderful day~

I've had white bone tea for dinner yesterday. :D and it've taken effect on me by making me afraid of practically everything.

from bird chirrping on a tree to mass amount of ants moving quickly to kittens running etc.

and what's worst is that the white bone tea made me realised I've grown more immature in looks over the past few years. After browsing through my camwhore-pictures file for a dp on YouthSays, I've came to accept the cold hard truth -- the life is really a circle. O .

and I think I'm going downhill already.

NOOOOoooooo...!!

but I'm still going to attack you all with my lame-ness! fat chance if you think I'll mourn over me turning into a small kid look. bah!

muahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. neopets is fun. (:

so extraordinary is His ways.

I don't know how to put this - I'm weirded out by what just happened, but it's not a bad weird. it's a good weird like as in what just happened was good but it was out of ordinary.

I've never cried so much for nothing before in my whole life.

all I did was did what that Still Small Voice told me to do. nobody cries for obeying someone. but I just did. it's weird. it's so so weird. and as I cried, my heart was full. it was overflowing with something I don't know - something good. but it definitely wasn't empty like when someone's crying out of depression. I'm so full of praises now my heart wouldn't stop singing.

Yesus, Kaulah sahabatku,

Yesus, Kau yang s'lalu berada di sisiku,

Kau sumber kuatku.

Yesus, Kaulah sahabatku,

Yesus, Kau yang tak pernah jemu-jemu di sisiku,

Kau sumber kuatku ...

it struck me weird why He would never be sick of being by my side. it's weird but it's the Truth. He would be there no matter what happens.

I am free to run,

I am free to dance,

I am free to live for You,

I am FREE!

indeed, I'm free - I'm free of all the little stumbles in life that we see as giants. I'm free of the boundaries created by human. I'm free of all the depressions. I'm free of diseases. I'm free of insecurity. I'm free of pressures. I'm free. Because who the Son sets free, is free indeed.

and because of that, I'm more than a winner.

Jika Allah di pihak kita, siapa dapat melawan?

Kita lebih dari pemenang!

Hallelujah, kibarkanlah panjiNya!

Yesus Raja segala Raja!

but hey, this is just the beginning of it all. the beginning of His plans for me. I was blog jumping 2 hours ago and I landed on SE's blogspot where I transferred myself to posts that were presented by RL (my 'twin') where she said about being Eagles. I didn't had an answer then, but now - I'm an Eagle. God's love will bring me up into the sky where I'll soar amongst the storm, focusing on the path God had laid down for me.

it was a breakthrough as to what I did for me. Because I would never do that, I never thought I would do that even. that tag I did a few days ago with the Question : to love someone or be loved is more blessed?

my answer would be to love someone who first love you.

I love Him because He first loved me. I chose Him because He first chose me. why did He love me? why did He chose me? I would never know. I mean - look at me! even my parents hate me sometimes. but I guess that's what makes Him so great, He loved me knowing exactly who I am. isn't that who we all need? isn't that what we all seek? someone who would love us knowing all of our weaknesses.


in Him, I believe I can fly.

an adventure

whoa.

I'm finally back from camp, but I think I gained weight instead of losing weight like I did for the Rakan Muda camp. HALT! you guys must be going 'what camp?' now. Cause I didn't mentioned anything about camps for the previous few posts. well, I just attended a 3D2N FGA CYC New Generation Youth Camp. whoa. what a long name.

the accomodation:
were okay.cause the tilam was the exact same as the tilam I have at home. Nylon-filled-sink-in-when-sat-on-too-long tilam. plus, we have 4 toilets. :D and air-cond! wheeee~

the food:
can't be deniededly superb. Seriously! (:

the people:
OH! God bless them. except for that kid that kept on squeezing me towards Jen Ai on the second day's service.

kidding lah.

the weirdest thing of all is that I met Ryan Tan Tze Tzun. my cousin who speaks mainly English and Hokkien in a Chinese-speaking camp. which thinks that kong long is dragon. and guess what? Marie that use to live somewhere along my row of houses there is neighbour to my cousin which invited him of course. small small world.

another weird thing is that I met ah Kua's friend - xiao ling. yes, the ah Kua from 6B class (to ex-6B people who so coincidentally is reading) . and also another ah Kua's friend - Wei Jian - that I still can't believe is only Form 3, he looks so .. like a graduate.

another thing, I got to know a whole bunch of not-so-crazy people that are just rightly cool. awesome. (: for example,
mark ong ka sing, mei qi, wei le, sook ping, kok tim (yvonne's cousin brother), wei jian, tian xiang, san san, xiao ling, ah Ken, kah yan, yvonne's cousin brother no. 2, yvonne's cousin brother no. 3 and yvonne's cousin sister - hahah! I just didn't got to know their names. you can't blame me!

and people that I knew earlier, we got closer and became a big giant crazy cool undignified-for-God family. really glad that most of the people I knew that went came to the Lord. that just proves that God is real and Jesus is alive! YEAHOOO~

AND the chairman is so totally omg-ingly lame.

the services:
was oh so awesome. you could feel it right to your bones the presence of the Lord. although the praise & worship songs seems to repeat itself over the past few days, that's what make it great! I mean, after 2 times singing the songs you don't have to refer to the lyrics anymore. :D and we had a great shouting session all through Praise session. great fun.

the first message presented was all blur to me because I was so tired that I kept dozing off and also because I was annoyed by the selfish little fat bratty kid next to me that kept on putting his leg on top of mine like my leg was some kind of a footstool. okay, shall not let that spoil my mood.

but the second message was okay. :D because I didn't doze off. bahaha.

the games?
OMG. I haven't had such aching muscles before in my life. night challenge games was fun, really it was so fun that well, it was fun! btw, I have a secret to tell, that night was my record breaking night. because I officially didn't bathed for 48 hours+ ; I bet none of you all noticed! HAHAH. well, now you know.anyway, the river probably washed away most of my dirt and stuff. yeah! we completely nailed the river game. there's only one task that I so so so so remember because it was the only one except for the river game that I contributed some efforts to - the walking across a mud + shit filled swamp via two ropes.

the day challenge games were HAHAHA. we so totally rocked at human juicer. :D uhm, we had to like chew on tomatoes and spit the juice into a bottle. our group - heart 8 - had the highest level of juice. guess why?

ice-breakers were a total knock-off too. we were completely victorious in tug-o-war, completely useless in 'lat lat sao si' and an average team in the use teeth to peel off sugar cane skin + peel off coconut skin game this morning.

yesterday night we stayed up till 3 to play unofficial games in the canteen, and that was my first time seeing qing foong not quiet. and it struck me that 'wow, he can talk!'. so irony to what Ryan (SE member) said last time. there's where I got to meet so many new people that were crazy. oh yeah, wei jian is so, so vain.

overall:
it was so friggin crazily fun. our group slogan is so weird that I have no comments on it but just in case you're interested, here it's how it goes:

wo men shi, HEART 8!

wo rang ni men, HEART 8 (ache)!

ji de wo men, HEART 8!

heart 8 we are, CHAMPIONS!

heart 8 we are, CHAMPIONS!

*the lion sleeps tonight tune*

we are heart 8,

we let you heart 8(ache),

a wee bam bam ba bwe~

*continuous shouts*

I only have two complaints to make (apart from the bratty annoying kid), first is that they spelled my name as Rebbeca. how can anyone spell Rebecca as Rebbeca? I mean -- Reb-beca. riiiiiiight. it's suppose to be a name?

the second thing is some people there present use whistles instead of shouting with their own voice box. and whistles not the use mouth shape into an o and blow air out whistle. it's the plastic whistle that goes onto such a high pitch a sound when air is blewn through it. it probably tore my ear-drum into a million pieces. I'm glad I had enough protein to gulped in throughout camp.

we won the overall by the way. and I got a cute little music ferris wheel photo frame.
heart 14 - cui boon's group (ah beh, kah yan, ming ming, jun fai, shee ping -- all there) got 1st runner up.
heart 12 - xin hui's group (ryan my cousin, Marie, wei jian, xiao ling, tian xiang -- etc.) got 2nd runner up.

lalala~ all the awards went to heart-zone. move-zone and voice-zone got no solid presents. HEHEHEHE. I'm happy btw. OH! YES. I FORGOT . I saw KKK there also. D: see? told you it's a small world.

pictures are with everyone else except for me. HAHAH. but the video should be out on youtube a short while after this. so stay tuned! come visit my blog as often and click on the YouthSays button! oooh! thank you, Sue Yin for joining. :D

Rebecca.
a memory to remember - I AM FREE! because who the Son sets free is free indeed.

YouthSays!

well, there's a tiny little thing following the page at the right-hand side bottom corner of the screen, so if you hover your mouse over it, something will appear. click it! :D

I've joined YouthSays under the influence of my sister. the amount of surveys there waiting for me to answer finish! haven! you cute little readers might not know it but I'm actually quite attached to answering surveys/doing tags. so when you're tagging me with a tag, I'm enjoying it more than I'm suffering. seriously, you don't believe me do you? - -

anyway, so this YouthSays thing is about voicing your opinion to people who will actually take your opinions to consideration. obviously they won't go and consider your opinion such as 'gulung tikar lah lousy tooot toot tooooooot' you know? if it were me receiving the opinion, I would track down your IP add and stalk you for the rest of your days. obviously to make your life a living hell.

so join lah! be a part of this gigantic huge family and voice out your opinions! sing to the world~ tadahhhH!!

gotta go iron the uniforms now. aren't house chores a bummer?
rebecca.
running my perfect race with Him guiding me step by step in His footprints.

the great escape? O.o

I'm all bloated and in shock now cause I just finished up McValue meal no. 1 and found out that John got 5As! that's a change from the results stated in his report book. I told you the standard was getting lower!

anyways, I should be doing my 2 tags now so here it is :

From Yweng Yian. oooooh, I won't forget about tagging you next time!

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
mourn and cry and plant mushrooms then Forgive and forget.

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
to have all my other dreams come true. (:

3. Whose butt would you like to kick?
no one in particular.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
these questions all sound awfully familiar. uh, billion dollars? gee, when I get it you ask me again.

5. What's your ideal lover like?
spanish spanish spanish spanish spanish spanish spanish spanish spanish spanish spanish

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
to love is more blessed .

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
wait for what? for the person to belanja me donut? until the day i die.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
OH WELL.

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
nope not recently. OH OH! i know! the penilaian report Mr. Lim gave me for my ARP. super happy about it. :D thanks again, sir.

10. What takes you down the fastest?
fastest. .. hmmm. you do a test on me and tell me.

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
26 years old I would be working. and free loading in my parent's house.

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
currently? MOST? well, people is mortal right? uh, hmm. currently this very second is the people around me.

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
latchshee. uh, what I think? well I don't like assuming or pressuming what a person is like. so, go away. shoo.

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
single and rich.

15. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
mumble 'good morning, God.'

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
no. I won't give me donuts away. make me do it, suckers! oops.

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
that won't happen.

18. What song are you listening now?
I'm not listening to any songs. but I'm listening to the interview on John about getting 5As tho. :D He friggin broke the family tradition. - -

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I don't understand how this tag works. am I suppose to answer the questions with a song name or what? O.o Elaine and Yweng Yian tags me.

oh oh I know how to do it already! shuffle your stupid player list and first song is answer to first question, second song to second question etc. lalala.

RULES:
1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5.Put this on your journal.


1. If someone says, " Is this okay? "You Say?
I don't want to miss a thing. [wth. it sounds so.. omg.]

2.How would you describe yourself?
Saviour King. [LOL. SHIT. blasphemy.]

3.What do you like in a girl?
crazy - simple plan [... .. uh, okay.]

4.How do you feel today?
My future decided [this thing is not working correctly]

5. What is your life's purpose?
Check Yes Juliet [.. my life's purpose is running away . riiight.]

6.What is your motto?
In Your Freedom. [...]

7. What do your friends think of you?
You saw me [yeah!]

8.What do you think of your parents?
introduce a little anarchy [LOL. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL.]

9.What do you think about very often?
He is Lord. [yeahhh~ at least this make sense.]

10.What is 2 + 2?
One day I'll fly away.

11.What do you think of your best friend?
You'll come. [she better.]

12.What do you think of the person you like?
Saving Grace

13.What is your life story?
Footprints in the sand. [:D :D :D]

14.What do you want to be when you grow up?
all these lives. [how many lives can I live anyway?]

15.What do you think of when you see the person you like?
found.

16.What will you dance to at your wedding?
How could I live. [how do i dance to this song?]

17.What will they play at your funeral?
Franklin - paramore [very appropriate it seems :D]

18.What is your hobby/interest?
i kissed a girl - katy perry [she kissed okay! not me! NOT ME!]

19.What is your biggest fear?
Why So serious

20.What is your biggest secret?
Love Enough

21.What do you think of your friends ?
come to praise

22.What will you post this as?
the great escape. [to what?!? to this random crappy post?]

I tag:
1.Tsing Tsing
2.Joseph Ng
3.Jadeeeee. :D
4.Yvonne!
5.Alvin Kuan.
6.Jen Hoe!!
7.JingQi (since I just realised you own a blog.)
8. Kevin Liew~
9. Ken Ken Ken Ho! weixing!
10. Chien. :P

genius spotted!

now, now, I could clearly grasp the reason behind all of the sentosians' hatred towards Mr. ost. but no, I didn't understood it just today. On the other hand, I came to realise a certain genius that lies within him. a genius that calls for a good amount of marvelling at, well for me at least.

see, after ARP meeting (idunwannatalkabouttheamountofteasingigot.screwyouyou-know-who-you-ares!) JingQi & I strolled over to the koperasi room as we usually do . but the funny thing was, Jodie (key keeper) forgot to bring the key along. lolol. so after a fair amount of poking the key hole with hair pins, we decided it was best for Jodie to just go home and get the key then come back again.

so anyway, after she came back, we were so happy, carrying our bags and all but suddenly Thum said 'yer, this thing can turn 360 degrees one!' meaning the lock got loose -- the key in the key hole could spin a 360 degrees without unlocking the door.

hair pins don't work with door knobs.

great! so. .. something happened and Mr. ost came by to look at it and whoa! he unlocked the door with a screw driver and wires! amazing.

then we went online (shh) via Pn. osy's laptop and played on bigfishgames till we Thum went high, as if she was on drugs, seriously, she was more active than usual. and suddenly Mr. ost appeared out of nowhere to fix the door knob. ahh, I seriously think he's a genius. anyway, I spied on him fixing the doorknob so if your house's door knob is spoilt, call me and i'll go fix it for you. :D obviously you have to pay.

the beginning :

it suddenly dawned upon me that the World is a little too unfair.

time passes by so fast and well, it just goes without informing you. which is bad, with the computer lagging like crazy + surprisingly very tiring house chores to complete with my maid gone and all. welcome, flat strong abs. :D but hula-hooping is out of the way with all these stuff to do. you see, I'm a very busy person . I need to sleep, eat and watch tv . :D

ytd's Class Party was somewhat unexpectedly fun, with the match of Arsenal vs ManUtd. going on and part of the boys present shouting like hooligans and practically bringing down the roof . yeah! 2-1! I can't believe ManUtd. scored. - -

I want a foosball machine!!

oh yeah, and the sausages were super since I was starving crazy for 5 hours before the meal. hah! see what chores do to you? they drain energy out of you like a leech! speaking of leeches, my sister posted up something very cool of me in her blog a few days ago. go visit if you like the idea of me and leech together.

bummer is, I forgot to bring along a camera to stalk on all my drool-worthy friends. but all the pictures taken are either with Soon Leong or Yweng Yian. so, if any of you happen to be so miraculously reading this, first, add me on msn, then send me the pictures. or should I just visit their friendsters? nahhh.

I still want a foosball machine.

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HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY, Min Yeen!

why is everyone smaller in size than me having their birthdays before me? it's just so seriously weird. but ah, anyhows, happy sweet 16th birthday! and well, I hope you had a great time eating the cake I didn't get to eat because I went back early ytd. ): i want the cake. gahhhh, I'm starting to feel hungry again.

Class Party today.

truth is, there are more people visiting my blog than I thought so.

will cut down on criticism if I can contain it. (:

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and.. finally I'm going to attend a class party. which is also a plus. why can't you guys like choose a better day? for example, during the holidays -- tuesday to friday ? it's as if you people have sixth sense and know i hv something on on Saturday therefore is on a quest to destroy my plan or something like that.

oh btw, RM15 is alot. = =

well so anyway, to all of the attendees, see you there! bye bye.

7thNov .. seventh?!

me and my room had reunited.

i'm rather unhappy today because of some reasons that apparently ALL of ahli ARP SMKSS knows about. which, of course, unless if you force to take donuts out of my life i'll never tell you. but you see, you don't have the power to make that happen, so you can't make me storytell it.

2, i think my teacher's husband is scary. like mr. Lim scary scary. yes, apparently mr. Lim scares the daylight out of me, if you don't know about it.

3, i have to choose between attending SE and class party tmr. in SE, i would have to face all the 'hey, rebecca! glad you're here.' crap and in class party, i have to face boredom. total complete boredom.

4, my first day of duty in koperasi was total failure. but it sure saved up a lot of energy.

5, it's a friday. and fridays had not been the best days of my life so far. and itmost probably means hot weather.

goodbyes

and a whole lot of them in such a short period isn't very good.

my house is covered in dust. thick, pungent, disturbing, itchy dust. which it will all change for the better in a matter of time. well, at least I hope it will. because all the strangers moving in and out of my house makes my hula-hooping time decrease in great number.

oh yeah,my house is getting an onning for the baju-baju for the years to come so that they won't get drenched in the rain while we're all at school listening to the teacher speak or speaking to the students from my mom's perspective. that explains the dust.

i'll bid farewell by being happy about getting back my dear darling super awesome lovely room. kakak, I could never have liked you more. (:

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>> when all else fails, search for his footprints in the sand.

happy turning old~

okay, I have to seperate these two posts because mainly the other post is too colourful. so, on today, I would like to greet a very old friend of mine, all the way down to standard 1 :

HAPPY SIXTEENTH BIRTHDAY, HUI XIN!

look at her small tiny cute chibi size and look at my huge mutated weird size and you just wonder how come she's older than me. though anyway, with all due respect, happy turning 16! you're older than me now and you owe me a birthday present because your birthday is in the same month as mine. ho ho ho .

other than that, I have another friend whose birthday is also today! jeng jeng jeng jeng -

my facebook friend :

Max Wong!

from Japan. I think, LOl. he's uh.. turning some age above 20 today lah. :D personally responsible for the mountain loads of application invites in my facebook account. but mobWars is FUN! so is the others. lalalala. so join facebook and add me! so I can give u invites to all the apps too. (: but it's getting all laggy these days. I think it's because my brother's downloading all the movies.

it will, if i -

if i sang a different song,

if i spoke different words,

if i act a different way,

i bet it'll be okay.

if i closed my eyes and turned

never looking back

danced all the way into the light

it will be o-kay,

i bet it'll be o-kay.

forgive you when you're wrong,

okay, i'll do that.

but forgive me when i'm wrong,

never, you'll say okay.

i'm tired of hiding in darkness,

what good is there when the hurt won't disappear?

so ..

i'll sing a different song,

i'll speak different words,

i'll act a different way,

and make sure it's okay.

i'll close my eyes and turn,

never-ever looking back,

and dance my merry dance into the light

because it'll be okay.

because He will be there,

because He will never hurt me

because He is everlasting

and too because He is life,

I don't have to hide anymore,

He will mend my wounds and carry me on His shoulders.

they never understand

no, people won't understand. they never do understand and they never will anyways, so I don't find the point in stating this out but.

when a person is having a hard time and tell you his/her stuff, listen. don't put him/her off by saying 'hey, cheer up anyways'. it's exactly like pouring cold water. except it's pouring cold water when you're sad. so it's double sadness. and resulting in double emoness.

people actually experience it themselves and they KNOW what people want to hear when they are sad and pouring out stories like grandmothers. but what do people care about? what more than themselves? people know what reaction given would be best but they differ from it and chose the easier route -- not having to deal with the sadness. guess what? you either lose a friend or you add on the space between yourselves when you do the 'hey, cheer up' crap.

what's so hard in listening? afterall, all you need to do is just sit there, nod your head from time to time and give out agreeing sounds. thats it! the end. close book, throw down toilet, flush.

unless if you're some kind of a ADHD patient and can't stop jumping around, I forgive you. anyone would forgive you. *sigh* a day of revelations it seems to be. I've discovered a lot of stuffs that are not really very pleasing. which I don't seem to want to recall.

the other way round.

so, I actually wanted to rant on about my sister that left me in school to wait for a never appearing car for the gazzilionth time already this year but I decided the better -- ranting on the departure of my maid.

5 years ago she arrived with short boy-cut hair. 5 years later she owns the longest lengthed hair I've ever saw someone own in real life.

5 years ago she was a stranger. 5 years later she is a friend. and an arch enemy to my sister.

5 years ago she spoke only a little. 5 years later I hear her sing her lungs out every afternoon and laugh like , seriously, a demented person whilst watching the Korean dramas.

5 years ago, she had no idea what mee sup was. 5 years later, she kept on cooking mee sup.

5 years ago, I hated her for stealing my bedroom away. 5 years later, I still hate her for that fact.

5 years ago, she was normal. 5 years later, I think she'd turned a little crazy. all the talking non-stop and the singing-to-yourselves.

well, whatever changes there were in these five years together, she'll be gone tomorrow. AND I GET MY BEDROOM BACK! YES! YES! YES!! I mean I have to start doing house chores and online time will die out eventually , since next year's SPM year , I'll probably be super emo next year and hence, resulting in the chain-up-myself-in-room act all over again like that period of time when I started to become an emo kid.

look on the bright side! I'll have more allowance! :D and no time to spend them. pffft.

but all of that comes of short-termed effect. of long-termed effect, I'll definitely miss her and her mee sup. and her singing. I'll probably be missing one helluva loads of home-food. cause my mom's too busy taking her afternoon naps and will probably forget to cook dinner and suddenly say , 'hey! who's up for mcD's?!' and eventually we'll get sick of mcD's too.

but really, I wish her all the best. and I pray for her wellness. because she's giving me back my room. hah hah ha hah aha ha ha . and I also hope that her now-5-year-old son doesn't calls her 'kakak' and will instead call her 'ibu' lolololol.

hmm. now comes the problem, what should I give her as departure gift?

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when life is shit and you know for sure you're going down the wrong way, there's always a U-turn up ahead where you can be on the right road again. pray to the Creator of CY Majoris, He'll carry you on His shoulders and bring you back home.

rebecca.
- this is home, where you are.

me a nominee.

for this
which I think Jen Hoe seems to have no one to tag it with therefore had placed me in the list. but I was first! yay. (: yay yay yay~

Now, now let's move on to the nominees :

1) qingworld (stumbled upon it one fine day, but it's 18-sx.)

2) Jocelyn Wong (hah. I don't even know her. stumbled upon it also. cool because she updates once in months)

3) Tan Elaine (for the overwhelming emo-ness)

4) Jade's! (for constantly making me laugh like some crazy person in front of the screen)

5) Yvonne's (because my friends are cool and she's my friend (: )

6) Alvin's (because of the cold jokes. -.- )

crap .. I'm stuck with 6 blogs only. uh..

7) ahhh! weixing! (for the colourful words.)

dehh.. I'm stuck again.

8) oh! oh! Chien's! (for the *erhem* words she chooses)

this is going to take a long time... ... ..

9) Jen Hoe!! because he tagged me with this. (:
10) won the funniest blog award. (mind you, I'm putting this up because I have no one to list on anymore.)

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I'm pretty much skipping all the classes in school these days. the teachers don't teach and even if they taught, I won't listen anyways, so it doesn't makes any difference if I skipped them and ran around the hall until my lungs explodes.

but no, I didn't skipped classes so that my lungs could explode today. I went to the koperasi room.

and I was so so so so so sleepy with nothing to do but everyone else busying away with either one or two things on their hands. so - I made up my mind to disturb them as much as I could. which I think yvonne got mad at me for. (: I think Jodie's elder sister (Iforgothername) got fed up of all the commotion and decided to went home early. Iforgothername happened to be a lower six student , so, still had to suffer in school.

anyway, that all had nothing to do with my main topic i was about to blog about. so you just wasted your time. teaches you to not read blogs with no sense.

GAHH! MY POINT IS!

my uncle. he has this really cool looking bottle that was presented to him by some chinese society he was in! it's very cool!! like those in anicent times, in China I mean, they carry around those weird shaped bottles containing alcohol around their waists . it looked just like that! and mind you, that bottle hiked up some interest in Chinese Language for some reasons. Although my system still adds in loadsa Malay into my speech and typings.

I just found out the bottle is called gourd.

YES! that's all I need to say. oh yeah. I passed my History test. a plus sign for the upcoming hols, my class's having a year-end trip! but boo-hoo, next year's teachers are going to be the same as this year's. which actually means another year of not listening in maths class.

oh! oH! I got an 83% for maths! a super plus sign for the hols! hahah.

life really rocks when God's in control. tralala. I'm really going to go sleep now. yesterday night's movie marathon on mr. & mrs. smith and followed by Bruce Almighty sure did ate up loads of my energy. what with running around and disturbing everyone today. *yawn*

nightey night darlings.
-- "to give You up, I'd be a fool."

look around.

if you guys had taken notice, I've changed my hit counter to something smaller and more normal. becuase apparently the previous counter was cheating, counting every page load. . . uh, okay.

anyway, yesterday when I blogged about my trip, I saw the new counter with '160' on it. but just now it had increased to '226'. and the weird thing is it's settings is set to unique visitors. O.o why is there a huge difference in the numbers? I have to say my counter is broken . SIGH//

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my family is coming back today from Ipoh where they had the memorial service for my uncle. what I don't get is that my uncles and aunties didn't want to tell my grandma about this matter, which I find utterly disturbing. I mean, she deserves to know .. right? even though she might faint over the news or something. GAH.

nvm, nvm.

so anyway, they're coming back today & I'm surprised my brother went together. hufff.

with all due respect,
Rebecca. (:
=> anata wa watakushi no shujin dayo!

".. You know the world can see us
In a way that’s different than who we are."

quoted from HSM soundtrack 'breaking free'

tear off that mask and let the world see who you really are.

just like the song title, 'break free'.

WOW!

I didn't updated for ONE day! (: but I have a long post so make yourself a huge pot of coffee and put it right in front of you at the computer table if you insist on reading.

anyways,

I'M BACK! *grins my abnormal grin*

and sweating like no one's business. I lost a rounded up amount of 2kg over the last two days.(believe me, I just weighed myself) let's see .. steep-hill climbing, setting up tent under hot burning Malaysia sun, eating less food than I normally do for 2 days, slept for 3 hours .. or was it 2 hours?, had sukaneka (tug-o-war, racing), cooked (O.O it's actually edible! don't worry, no one died), acted as a yakuza, played badminton, did aerobic, treasure hunt, talking more than I normally do, made my mind process more Malay Language than usual .. yeah, guess that's it. OH! and walked home via bus ride in between walks under hot hot hot hot hot sun.

So anyway, I need to shut up and make my pictures start talking. oh wait, before that, you need to know I got seperated with JingQi because of the group numbering stuff. so.. yeah.

First Day :

watch tower in Bukit Gasing. (yeah, we climbed Bukit Gasing and thought it was a BIG deal.)

Siti Hajar, Betty Ngalang & Woo JingQi (tent mates!)

first to rise.

umbrella pun dah keluar. apa yg kurang lagi?

Lol. JingQi can become a pro model.

Spagghetti for lunch.

'ngok, Hajar gune chopstick tu!

JingQi & Hajar sack jumping (sukaneka)

Nazib pregnant with a balloon and .. iforgothisname posing.

positions of one of the three tug-o-war that my group actually won.

group photo! don't ask why my feet appeared on top of someone's head. I don't know either. 0:-)

they cooked dinner while I cam-whored.

JingQi cooked. A lot. for her group only lah. ):

my group's super delicious dinner.

me & Nazib

me in full (so-called) yakuza costume & Nazib

En. Hazdi lied to us weih! He.. he told us to go to the multipurpose hall at 1am but when we passed by at 1.10am, no one was there. AND PLUS he told us to wake up at 5.30am for don't know what lah but he himself wasn't there. That was TWICE he tricked us! lousy. and anyway, I tossed and turned through the night and I didn't got any sleep at all until the.. 20th song on Hitz.fm was playing. D: actually I was about to go sleep at the 15th song butthen 'breaking free' started playing and I was all, whoa. This song reminds me of so many many things and when HSM wasn't that cheesy and bleaugh. but Hajar likes HSM so.. dahlah. don't insult too much.

continue on! 2nd Day :

sky in Kuchai at 7am.

Nazib's super cool way of heating his bread.

before taking down the tent.

the all so famouse international language of aliens

Hajar & me

my group and being clueless about what the clue 'large pondok small house' meant during treasure hunt

Form 2 creeps that made our lives horrible with their idea of the Sukaneka activities, first-night activity (the yakuza dress up), and treasure hunt.

I didn't particularly cared whether I won the lousy treasure hunt anyways, because the other group that won got a very beautiful round and yellow thing with pink scribbles on it.

tada! ah, tahniah, syabas. dpt dah belon happy kan?

Nazib showing his skills of washing chicken

Pn. Toh! our mentor. (:

you guess lah what it is. you guess lah. guess je.

cincau? jelly? gui lin gao? NOH. all wrong. it's OIL. cooking oil. I wonder if anyone would believe if I said it was Diesel and sold it away?

LOL. this is funny story about the steamer.

see the leg without slippers? the owner of the pair of legs apparently had no idea how to steam food and so very coincidentally place the whole three layers of thing on top of the fire. with the chicken in it on the second layer. with no water at all on the first layer. very funny. I laughed till my toe started to join me in laughter in my head.

Hajar & JingQi with specs

Hajar & clues for treasure hunt & me

my group's tasteless lunch that has the look. see children, don't judge a book by it's cover.

the other group's lunch which fried rice with egg I didn't taste. ):

'Betty, 'ngok, masih ade darah la, tak enak langsung ko.'

I thought the tea tasted better than the food.

tak tahu malu langsung ko, masih bergembira mengambik gambar mcm dah menang tu.

what had I learnt from this camp? HMM.. well, besides discriminating people that are different from our skin colour ah .. I've learnt to be a sore loser lo. my group sucks. I'm sorry for the term but it really does. it's like they see you as worthless if you're not of the same kind. and they discriminate. a whole lot. and they speak bad about the other team whenever they win a game. I mean, c'mon! this is a camp. camp is fun. and fun is not speaking bad about other people. fun is also not ignoring anyone that don't have the same skin colour as you. DUDETTES, YOU say the They do the discriminating acts, what in the world did I saw in the past 2 days? WAKE UP! and brew me coffee.

OKay.

I'm suppose to go offline now cause my arm and stomach are starting to ache and my shoulders are stiff and I can't walk properly because of .. screw aerobics.

dah. DAH. anyway, I had fun la. my BM boosted up thanks to Betty and Hajar and Nazib. Lol. but Nazib don't speak much. unlike Hajar who can go on and on and on about movies to people to TV series to F1 to WWE to football (go Fabregas!) to singers to tennis players to US President election to motor racing to everything else in the whole wide world you can speak of about lah! and the problem is JingQi knows as much as she does so I did most of the listening and agreeing (especially to the part where she said Fabregas leng chai lah) and giving comment like DBSK is not really that cool.

oh okay, sorry. anyway, DAH! (: I'm going to go bath and straight to bed. D: En. Hazdi, kenapalah tipu kami? 'ngok, I dah hilang 2kg ni. tak mcm saye dah, dah tak bulat. tak cantik lah mcm ni.. kan? (:

speaking of it,

I'm blogging twice in a day again. it's cheating, I know, as Yvonne says.

but this is vital information. I know why I'm being extraordinarily emo today already. it is because my uncle had passed away today. am I close to him? well, we were good friends when I was small .. my first memory of him is that he helped me tied plaits and even took a picture of me. the picture's in my grandma's house now.

now my memory of him stays like this : thick specs, weird grin, ah-pek hair-do and constantly saying 'cool' with a thumbs-up sign.

and when I start to miss him, I can always go to the disciplinary room in SMK Sri Sentosa and find that teacher that resembles my uncle. a lot.

".. so I'll dance with Cinderella
while she is here in my arms .."

cherish and appreciate those beside you before it's too late, before your words or feelings couldn't reach them anymore.

I would like to say, I do, very very much appreciate you all friends that had seen more of my face than my thoughts. including You who ignores me, You know who You are and I know who You are. including friends I don't speak to much anymore, like friends that had migrated to Penang and enjoy all the good food without me. including friends that I had known through friends. including friends that are long lost. and of course, including you suckers that see me until jelat already. all of you play an important part in my monotonous and weird life that I thank God for.

God is good, all the time. Amen. (:

where do I hide?

She particularly ignored Me completely when I said 'hello' and not even that, She rolled her eyes at Me like I'm some kind of useless crap that's not worth Her attention. it could've been just my imagination and I might've spoken too softly for the human ears to have caught the frequency of my voice. but 'could have' is an undetermined phrase. it isn't the first time, btw. it isn't I who doesn't wants to speak to Her, it really isn't. somehow, I just wonder if She had ever treated me as a friend. just somehow. and btw, I secretly think She is two-faced. but ahh, without clear evidence what I say wouldn't mean anything now would it? and anyway, I'm not suppose to judge, so OKAY. I'm letting this go. again. for the I dunno how many times already. okay, okay, let go. i'm super great at forgetting stuffs anyways.



forget the emo crap. see, weixing, it has taken effect on me already, seriously lah, stop emoing. btw, I'M NOT A YAKUZA.


oh yeah, I'm on here today not because I'm not emo on my add maths result. I failed my standard. a stinking 43 marks is what I've obtained. but I still Praise the Lord because I'm ahead in my total marks in comparison to Po Chi's. (^-^) I've determined myself to get a better rank than her since last term, so by the looks of it it's coming true. but .. Sejarah and Physics are not here yet, so.. oh well. (:



I'm going off track again!


anyways, I'm actually here to announce that I'll be spending the night on school grounds tomorrow. Pn. Toh said there will be ghosts so I dunno, pray for me? haha. Attending camp means not attending the service in FGA tomorrow night for the assembling of high schools so I don't get to go there and eat free food. I mean, I don't get to bring friends there. bummer, really. but no worries, I'll be praying for the people present so yeah, enjoy yourselves! and bring me some food. :D I doubt whatever I'll be cooking will not create discomfort to my belly anyways.

do you have peace in the storm?

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I believe, that the round fried stuff are tastier than the holey round fried stuff.

Global Warming is affecting Malaysia.

which is bad. seriously

OMG. IT'S SO FRIGGIN' HOT. I've been sweating ever since 8 in the morning which was when I started to stone in class because no teachers were coming in and Seven Ancient Wonders by Matthew Riley rocks! well, in my case it was better than Da Vinci Code. D: I couldn't withstand the deep English words (well, my language is bad, so..) so I gave up after reading about the official meeting with the corpse that started off the mystery but Seven Ancient Wonders is In-ter-res-ting. ahh, but I do think that I'll continue on with Da Vinci Code when I've run out of books to read. (:

anyways, if you've taken the liberty of reading my cBox, you'd have found out that my sister is currently pissed off at me and had apparently, threatened to post up a super sexy picture of myself showing off my huge bouncy stomach. why? because I posted a video of her smashing the guitar and her friend saw it who is currently laughing her head off the video and she dislikes the laughing part. Elaine! you showed your sister the video didn't you!!

deh! I'm going off the track of my main reason of posting.

Ahem.

it's exactly one more month before my birthday. (: tralala. la la la la la la.

oyeah, I didn't got my add maths result yet so I'm not emo and therefore, tadah! I'm blogging! AGAIN! but I got my Chinese though, which was really bad compared to that of the last two terms. GAH. but let's just forget about that. and remember Chemistry is goooooooood.

okay, OKay. I geddit, byebye.

now or never.

miss D : what are you doing here, Troy?
Quek : to sing song.

what do I have to say about this movie?

well, they sing too much. what can I expect out of a musical anyways. and you can sense that a song is coming everytime the background music plays up. watching HSM 3 is like watching a comedy show. literally. what with the beginning when Troy was going to lose the game and suddenly Gabriella stands up from the middle of the crowd and they start singing a duet.

but seriously, the movie makes people want to spend their high school years meaningfully. well, at least it worked for me and it made me want to spend my high school year (left one more miserable year) meaningfully.

OH WELL. no matter what I have to say about the movie, THANK YOU YVONNE! (: I just realised I forgot to say it. LOL. why do I thank her? she belanjaed me watch that movie. (^-^)

I think my finger blocked the flash light. HAHAHAHA.

uhm, I'm sorry you didn't get to see me, you'll get to see me often anyway, with my obsession of myself hiking up inside me these days. (:

OH! oh oh.. I forgot to put this picture up since the last dunno how many posts.

of remembrance to the victory of Spain. ahh, lovely Spain.

SO! next event : receiving results from my badly-taken finals. wish me luck! and I dunno, cross your fingers that I become emo and stop blogging for once? HAHA. I wish you all the best of lucks too. and weixing, stop emoing. reading emo posts makes people emo too. =D

tralala, someone owes me donuts! LOADS and LOADS of donuts! colourful, beautiful, lovely, tasty, mouth watering, fattening donuts.

do you know that hula-hooping for half an hour burns 200 calories? and it strengthens up your abs and ass and legs. :D good exercise! btw, I'm hula-hooping. huahuahua, strong abs. strong abs. strong abs. strong abs. ohh.. you're still here? O._.O

despite it all,

*edit* I don't like my voice the way other people hears it, it's so weird and it makes me sound like I'm trying to be some kind of girly crap, I prefer the voice that I hear better. and yes, that's me trying using Cina accent and failed real badly.

that was what I've used my Deepavali for. and of course, also playing motherload on miniclip. that game is super addictive, mind you. OH! and I got to eat Indian food afterall. (: uh, duhhh?! my-right-beside-me neighbour is an Indian, how could I not taste Indian food?

so anyway, I'm going out later with my whole bunch of crazy friends. that's right, they are MINE. dare you steal them I'm going to .. uh, I'm going to steal all your food! hmph!

:D so before Li Pheng arrives at my house, lemme go mine more ores on martian grounds. motherload!!!

दीपावली

*lies down on the floor with legs kicking in the air*

I WANT TO GO EAT INDIAN FOOD!

oh, ehhe, *erhem* sorry.

HAPPY DEEPAVALI!

or is it diwali? hmmmmmm.. either way, to all the indians of the world, or rather the indians that I personally know myself : thank you a whole gazillion bunches lot for lightening up my face whenever I stop by for a little talk! all of your senses of humour always seems to be enlighten me. I somehow wonder if it's in the genes of indians. HMMM.. but anyway, no matter you're Hindu or no Hindu, INVITE ME TO YOUR HOUSE LAH! pasti got cook good food right? ^^ riiight? I dah tak tahan Chinese food at home. omg, what with the mee soup everyday. *erhem* yesh, :D. you all very leng chai and leng lui lah. did that do? 0:-)

my neighbourhood.

I'm all sticky and sweaty and itchy now so I'll make this post as short as possible. cross your fingers! ahnyways, John's school friend decided to come over this afternoon and after they got bored of hogging on the laggy laptop, they decided to play badminton. which I had coincidentally urged my mom to go on a match with me on badminton a few seconds ago.

yes, John, I appreciate that you take away the only two miserable racquets in the house. pft.

then I was asked to babysit them to Jalan 4 where the badminton court was situated. so okay, I'll go along. and my mom decided to come along too. so happily we skipped there. OKAY, so we didnt skipped, skipped, it's just a descriptive word. fine, forget about that.

the people that were initially there were kicking football (yeh, on the badminton court) and saw us coming by with our badminton racquets had really pure hearts and decided to let out the court for them and they all went to get their respective racquets from their homes. the gist of it all is that I never knew such community existed before. yeah, these scenes are often portrayed in those reminiscing-childhood-memories Japanese movies but in real life? lock yourself in your room and go online is more practical.

it's really a blessing to see that, really it is! I mean, they are really super friendly, unlike the people up hill .. ... OKAY, so they are friendly too but not friendly in a way that they would ask you to join their activities when they only knew you for like .. um.. let me see.. 5 minutes?

OKAY, whatever. you don't get me. ): anyway, people, relationships, they're God's gift. treasure them, cherish them and you'll never regret. not even when they stab you in the back. seriously.

I owe it.

okay, I know I'm suppose to hide because Jade had threatened to create a mad mob towards me because apparently Shige-sama's doll had disappeared off the surface of the Earth. literally.



BUT, someone by the name of Yvonne the sotong (which don't know that Johor is called 'rou fo' in chinese) had just ringed me up and told me someone disliked my previous post and had also pestered me to post a new post because she's somehow in love with my posts. which I take as a compliment. (: thank you! well, to date, no one had ever said my posts were interesting. and what more, I was always positive that my posts would bore people away. like when I picked out my special weapon to bore Kavilan's friends away, that was classic. oh yeah, so I'm here, posting a new post to make the previous post not so eye catching.



OKAY, I sort of like have a confession to make.



you know the Chemistry Paper 2 test I went in 15 minutes late for? my quiet place was under the big tree.



ok, you still don't get me.



the big tree is where we go for prayers during recess. so I went there, actually THINKING there was prayer that day.



get it?



go run around in quadrilaterals lah, if you don't.



I really think it's magnificent how God works. It's like truly so superly magnificent that it seriously just makes me stand in awe, and it proves that song we sing in services right. 'I stand in awe of You.' That day, I seriously couldn't describe what I felt like when I sat back at my place knowing that I was late for 15 minutes. my hands were numb and I could barely write words at my usual pace. I was all, 'Okay, Lord, so... 15 minutes late, no one showed up at the tree, now I'm here, staring at this blank paper .. my fever is starting to burn up again .. so, OKAY, whatever it is, everything , for Your glory, in Your hands.'



the end of my conversation with God.



I think I really, superly owe it all to Him. Every single penny I have, although I don't really have much, HAHA. every skill I have, everything, what I have now, it was all His in the beginning. so how could I, possibly, ever live a day without thanking Him?



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before my rotting mind forgets all about this thing I would like to post about,

ms. Chuar Yweng Yian!

is that how you spell her name?

SHE ADDS ON TO MY LIST OF CHARACTERS! of my blog posts. and I was so dense! she actually linked me already. so, okay. haha but she's not visiting my blog so.. oh well? I hope she'll come visit and know that I'll be really pleased if she joined us for camp tho! (: so, give it up for Yweng Yian! and pester her to join the Youth Challenge Camp! Elaine too!