how do i sit still and do nothing
after all He had done for me?
Showing posts with label Christ. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Christ. Show all posts
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20081118
so extraordinary is His ways.
I don't know how to put this - I'm weirded out by what just happened, but it's not a bad weird. it's a good weird like as in what just happened was good but it was out of ordinary.
I've never cried so much for nothing before in my whole life.
all I did was did what that Still Small Voice told me to do. nobody cries for obeying someone. but I just did. it's weird. it's so so weird. and as I cried, my heart was full. it was overflowing with something I don't know - something good. but it definitely wasn't empty like when someone's crying out of depression. I'm so full of praises now my heart wouldn't stop singing.
it struck me weird why He would never be sick of being by my side. it's weird but it's the Truth. He would be there no matter what happens.
indeed, I'm free - I'm free of all the little stumbles in life that we see as giants. I'm free of the boundaries created by human. I'm free of all the depressions. I'm free of diseases. I'm free of insecurity. I'm free of pressures. I'm free. Because who the Son sets free, is free indeed.
and because of that, I'm more than a winner.
but hey, this is just the beginning of it all. the beginning of His plans for me. I was blog jumping 2 hours ago and I landed on SE's blogspot where I transferred myself to posts that were presented by RL (my 'twin') where she said about being Eagles. I didn't had an answer then, but now - I'm an Eagle. God's love will bring me up into the sky where I'll soar amongst the storm, focusing on the path God had laid down for me.
it was a breakthrough as to what I did for me. Because I would never do that, I never thought I would do that even. that tag I did a few days ago with the Question : to love someone or be loved is more blessed?
my answer would be to love someone who first love you.
I love Him because He first loved me. I chose Him because He first chose me. why did He love me? why did He chose me? I would never know. I mean - look at me! even my parents hate me sometimes. but I guess that's what makes Him so great, He loved me knowing exactly who I am. isn't that who we all need? isn't that what we all seek? someone who would love us knowing all of our weaknesses.
in Him, I believe I can fly.
I've never cried so much for nothing before in my whole life.
all I did was did what that Still Small Voice told me to do. nobody cries for obeying someone. but I just did. it's weird. it's so so weird. and as I cried, my heart was full. it was overflowing with something I don't know - something good. but it definitely wasn't empty like when someone's crying out of depression. I'm so full of praises now my heart wouldn't stop singing.
Yesus, Kaulah sahabatku,
Yesus, Kau yang s'lalu berada di sisiku,
Kau sumber kuatku.
Yesus, Kaulah sahabatku,
Yesus, Kau yang tak pernah jemu-jemu di sisiku,
Kau sumber kuatku ...
it struck me weird why He would never be sick of being by my side. it's weird but it's the Truth. He would be there no matter what happens.
I am free to run,
I am free to dance,
I am free to live for You,
I am FREE!
indeed, I'm free - I'm free of all the little stumbles in life that we see as giants. I'm free of the boundaries created by human. I'm free of all the depressions. I'm free of diseases. I'm free of insecurity. I'm free of pressures. I'm free. Because who the Son sets free, is free indeed.
and because of that, I'm more than a winner.
Jika Allah di pihak kita, siapa dapat melawan?
Kita lebih dari pemenang!
Hallelujah, kibarkanlah panjiNya!
Yesus Raja segala Raja!
but hey, this is just the beginning of it all. the beginning of His plans for me. I was blog jumping 2 hours ago and I landed on SE's blogspot where I transferred myself to posts that were presented by RL (my 'twin') where she said about being Eagles. I didn't had an answer then, but now - I'm an Eagle. God's love will bring me up into the sky where I'll soar amongst the storm, focusing on the path God had laid down for me.
it was a breakthrough as to what I did for me. Because I would never do that, I never thought I would do that even. that tag I did a few days ago with the Question : to love someone or be loved is more blessed?
my answer would be to love someone who first love you.
I love Him because He first loved me. I chose Him because He first chose me. why did He love me? why did He chose me? I would never know. I mean - look at me! even my parents hate me sometimes. but I guess that's what makes Him so great, He loved me knowing exactly who I am. isn't that who we all need? isn't that what we all seek? someone who would love us knowing all of our weaknesses.
in Him, I believe I can fly.
20081105
the other way round.
so, I actually wanted to rant on about my sister that left me in school to wait for a never appearing car for the gazzilionth time already this year but I decided the better -- ranting on the departure of my maid.
5 years ago she arrived with short boy-cut hair. 5 years later she owns the longest lengthed hair I've ever saw someone own in real life.
5 years ago she was a stranger. 5 years later she is a friend. and an arch enemy to my sister.
5 years ago she spoke only a little. 5 years later I hear her sing her lungs out every afternoon and laugh like , seriously, a demented person whilst watching the Korean dramas.
5 years ago, she had no idea what mee sup was. 5 years later, she kept on cooking mee sup.
5 years ago, I hated her for stealing my bedroom away. 5 years later, I still hate her for that fact.
5 years ago, she was normal. 5 years later, I think she'd turned a little crazy. all the talking non-stop and the singing-to-yourselves.
well, whatever changes there were in these five years together, she'll be gone tomorrow. AND I GET MY BEDROOM BACK! YES! YES! YES!! I mean I have to start doing house chores and online time will die out eventually , since next year's SPM year , I'll probably be super emo next year and hence, resulting in the chain-up-myself-in-room act all over again like that period of time when I started to become an emo kid.
look on the bright side! I'll have more allowance! :D and no time to spend them. pffft.
but all of that comes of short-termed effect. of long-termed effect, I'll definitely miss her and her mee sup. and her singing. I'll probably be missing one helluva loads of home-food. cause my mom's too busy taking her afternoon naps and will probably forget to cook dinner and suddenly say , 'hey! who's up for mcD's?!' and eventually we'll get sick of mcD's too.
but really, I wish her all the best. and I pray for her wellness. because she's giving me back my room. hah hah ha hah aha ha ha . and I also hope that her now-5-year-old son doesn't calls her 'kakak' and will instead call her 'ibu' lolololol.
hmm. now comes the problem, what should I give her as departure gift?
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when life is shit and you know for sure you're going down the wrong way, there's always a U-turn up ahead where you can be on the right road again. pray to the Creator of CY Majoris, He'll carry you on His shoulders and bring you back home.
rebecca.
- this is home, where you are.
5 years ago she arrived with short boy-cut hair. 5 years later she owns the longest lengthed hair I've ever saw someone own in real life.
5 years ago she was a stranger. 5 years later she is a friend. and an arch enemy to my sister.
5 years ago she spoke only a little. 5 years later I hear her sing her lungs out every afternoon and laugh like , seriously, a demented person whilst watching the Korean dramas.
5 years ago, she had no idea what mee sup was. 5 years later, she kept on cooking mee sup.
5 years ago, I hated her for stealing my bedroom away. 5 years later, I still hate her for that fact.
5 years ago, she was normal. 5 years later, I think she'd turned a little crazy. all the talking non-stop and the singing-to-yourselves.
well, whatever changes there were in these five years together, she'll be gone tomorrow. AND I GET MY BEDROOM BACK! YES! YES! YES!! I mean I have to start doing house chores and online time will die out eventually , since next year's SPM year , I'll probably be super emo next year and hence, resulting in the chain-up-myself-in-room act all over again like that period of time when I started to become an emo kid.
look on the bright side! I'll have more allowance! :D and no time to spend them. pffft.
but all of that comes of short-termed effect. of long-termed effect, I'll definitely miss her and her mee sup. and her singing. I'll probably be missing one helluva loads of home-food. cause my mom's too busy taking her afternoon naps and will probably forget to cook dinner and suddenly say , 'hey! who's up for mcD's?!' and eventually we'll get sick of mcD's too.
but really, I wish her all the best. and I pray for her wellness. because she's giving me back my room. hah hah ha hah aha ha ha . and I also hope that her now-5-year-old son doesn't calls her 'kakak' and will instead call her 'ibu' lolololol.
hmm. now comes the problem, what should I give her as departure gift?
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when life is shit and you know for sure you're going down the wrong way, there's always a U-turn up ahead where you can be on the right road again. pray to the Creator of CY Majoris, He'll carry you on His shoulders and bring you back home.
rebecca.
- this is home, where you are.
20081025
I owe it.
okay, I know I'm suppose to hide because Jade had threatened to create a mad mob towards me because apparently Shige-sama's doll had disappeared off the surface of the Earth. literally.
BUT, someone by the name of Yvonne the sotong (which don't know that Johor is called 'rou fo' in chinese) had just ringed me up and told me someone disliked my previous post and had also pestered me to post a new post because she's somehow in love with my posts. which I take as a compliment. (: thank you! well, to date, no one had ever said my posts were interesting. and what more, I was always positive that my posts would bore people away. like when I picked out my special weapon to bore Kavilan's friends away, that was classic. oh yeah, so I'm here, posting a new post to make the previous post not so eye catching.
OKAY, I sort of like have a confession to make.
you know the Chemistry Paper 2 test I went in 15 minutes late for? my quiet place was under the big tree.
ok, you still don't get me.
the big tree is where we go for prayers during recess. so I went there, actually THINKING there was prayer that day.
get it?
go run around in quadrilaterals lah, if you don't.
I really think it's magnificent how God works. It's like truly so superly magnificent that it seriously just makes me stand in awe, and it proves that song we sing in services right. 'I stand in awe of You.' That day, I seriously couldn't describe what I felt like when I sat back at my place knowing that I was late for 15 minutes. my hands were numb and I could barely write words at my usual pace. I was all, 'Okay, Lord, so... 15 minutes late, no one showed up at the tree, now I'm here, staring at this blank paper .. my fever is starting to burn up again .. so, OKAY, whatever it is, everything , for Your glory, in Your hands.'
the end of my conversation with God.
I think I really, superly owe it all to Him. Every single penny I have, although I don't really have much, HAHA. every skill I have, everything, what I have now, it was all His in the beginning. so how could I, possibly, ever live a day without thanking Him?
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before my rotting mind forgets all about this thing I would like to post about,
is that how you spell her name?
SHE ADDS ON TO MY LIST OF CHARACTERS! of my blog posts. and I was so dense! she actually linked me already. so, okay. haha but she's not visiting my blog so.. oh well? I hope she'll come visit and know that I'll be really pleased if she joined us for camp tho! (: so, give it up for Yweng Yian! and pester her to join the Youth Challenge Camp! Elaine too!
BUT, someone by the name of Yvonne the sotong (which don't know that Johor is called 'rou fo' in chinese) had just ringed me up and told me someone disliked my previous post and had also pestered me to post a new post because she's somehow in love with my posts. which I take as a compliment. (: thank you! well, to date, no one had ever said my posts were interesting. and what more, I was always positive that my posts would bore people away. like when I picked out my special weapon to bore Kavilan's friends away, that was classic. oh yeah, so I'm here, posting a new post to make the previous post not so eye catching.
OKAY, I sort of like have a confession to make.
you know the Chemistry Paper 2 test I went in 15 minutes late for? my quiet place was under the big tree.
ok, you still don't get me.
the big tree is where we go for prayers during recess. so I went there, actually THINKING there was prayer that day.
get it?
go run around in quadrilaterals lah, if you don't.
I really think it's magnificent how God works. It's like truly so superly magnificent that it seriously just makes me stand in awe, and it proves that song we sing in services right. 'I stand in awe of You.' That day, I seriously couldn't describe what I felt like when I sat back at my place knowing that I was late for 15 minutes. my hands were numb and I could barely write words at my usual pace. I was all, 'Okay, Lord, so... 15 minutes late, no one showed up at the tree, now I'm here, staring at this blank paper .. my fever is starting to burn up again .. so, OKAY, whatever it is, everything , for Your glory, in Your hands.'
the end of my conversation with God.
I think I really, superly owe it all to Him. Every single penny I have, although I don't really have much, HAHA. every skill I have, everything, what I have now, it was all His in the beginning. so how could I, possibly, ever live a day without thanking Him?
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before my rotting mind forgets all about this thing I would like to post about,
is that how you spell her name?
SHE ADDS ON TO MY LIST OF CHARACTERS! of my blog posts. and I was so dense! she actually linked me already. so, okay. haha but she's not visiting my blog so.. oh well? I hope she'll come visit and know that I'll be really pleased if she joined us for camp tho! (: so, give it up for Yweng Yian! and pester her to join the Youth Challenge Camp! Elaine too!
20081013
let go and forget or hold on and cherish?
before I forget,
everyone's turning old but me. ): anyway, to Elaine : thank you a whole bunch lot for being the person that listens to my lame jokes in either Chemistry, Bio or Physics lab! and sometimes even laughing at them. :D thank you for accompanying me when my sister had to stay back. HAHA. like you have a choice? thank you for being the face of the person that I stuck my Kukumalu bag into and shouted 'kukumalu power!' thank you for even wanting to talk to someone as lame as I! (:
heck, thank you for being yourself! happy turning 16~
you can't blame me for not posting yesterday .. I didn't even get to glance at the computer!
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HahahahHAHAHahahaha.
if I ever say I'm going to stop blogging for about a few days or weeks or until something is over, I will never keep my promise. somehow, one way or another. I think it's an unspoken rule to break my promise over the net or something(?). or rather interesting stuffs seems to happen more often between the time of when I make the promise and the deadline of the promise.
for example, the chemistry test.which sticks to my memory like super glue. screw yvonne for laughing at me. ):
huh. anyway, I went for a little tour to 4a10 today during recess. If I say I miss them, it would seem all mushy and ......emo. remember emo. but ah, how long had it been last for us all to be together? I mean, everytime we're going for an outing or anything either a person or three can't go. bummer sial. it's kinda sad, actually.
and now being in different classes and all, crap. it makes me wonder why I stayed in 4a11 and not requested for a change of class somehow. it's all for bio!!(: but honestly speaking, if everything were to go back to last year (when i wasn't so fat.. omg, don't get me started on this.) man, I wouldn't want to miss the chance.
but that would mean repeating a year without God's glory. nah, I choose to move on. (: so, who wants to go out after exams and 'gap zai'? :D
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, TAN ELAINE !!
everyone's turning old but me. ): anyway, to Elaine : thank you a whole bunch lot for being the person that listens to my lame jokes in either Chemistry, Bio or Physics lab! and sometimes even laughing at them. :D thank you for accompanying me when my sister had to stay back. HAHA. like you have a choice? thank you for being the face of the person that I stuck my Kukumalu bag into and shouted 'kukumalu power!' thank you for even wanting to talk to someone as lame as I! (:
heck, thank you for being yourself! happy turning 16~
you can't blame me for not posting yesterday .. I didn't even get to glance at the computer!
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HahahahHAHAHahahaha.
if I ever say I'm going to stop blogging for about a few days or weeks or until something is over, I will never keep my promise. somehow, one way or another. I think it's an unspoken rule to break my promise over the net or something(?). or rather interesting stuffs seems to happen more often between the time of when I make the promise and the deadline of the promise.
for example, the chemistry test.which sticks to my memory like super glue. screw yvonne for laughing at me. ):
huh. anyway, I went for a little tour to 4a10 today during recess. If I say I miss them, it would seem all mushy and ......emo. remember emo. but ah, how long had it been last for us all to be together? I mean, everytime we're going for an outing or anything either a person or three can't go. bummer sial. it's kinda sad, actually.
and now being in different classes and all, crap. it makes me wonder why I stayed in 4a11 and not requested for a change of class somehow. it's all for bio!!(: but honestly speaking, if everything were to go back to last year (when i wasn't so fat.. omg, don't get me started on this.) man, I wouldn't want to miss the chance.
but that would mean repeating a year without God's glory. nah, I choose to move on. (: so, who wants to go out after exams and 'gap zai'? :D
20080924
what is your choice?
So, you could be in a same class with 38 other students, in other words, friends, but do you know each and every one of their needs and do you have a solution to each and every one of their problems?
well, here's the secret whether you like it or not : my God can. my Jesus can.
I can hear you saying what? well, yes. I assure you with everything I have, if you would just sit down, look up to heaven and then say, 'Jesus, I feel so weary. and I've read a cuckoo-head's blog that if I would just do this, you would help me. I believe you will help me. Because this cuckoo-head said she assure me with everything she has .. even her pisang gorengs.'
and also, I assure you that if you go to the tokong tokong cina and go tok your way to idunnohowfar your burdens will still stay on your shoulders, unless if you seek the Alpha and the Omega. and even if you step on needles and poke blong sharp sticks through your body, your sins will not be forgiven, unless if you accept Christ as your Saviour.
why am I so sure? dude, why do you think I'm sure? of course I've been through some stuff that I thought was hell but how many of you actually KNOWS what hell is like? you think it's cool to be in hell? NO. it's hot, friggin hot, hot and you don't want to be there is all I can tell you.
come to Jesus would you?
your heart could be evil or pure. would you come and let Jesus hold you by the hand, comfort you through valleys of darkness?
I'm honestly betting not, you don't have the ability to even understand them.
Who can?
okay, so maybe a whole class is a little too .. huge for you to handle. Let's just make the picture into a three super close friends, and assuming you know each and every of their deepest darkest secrets. But can you help them with their problems?
and I'm saying, No, you can't help your closest friends, you can't ease their worst pain when the time their darkest secrets is leaked out. what more, I think you can't even help yourself if such events happened on you.
Who can?
Or if you would like, we could push away one friend and let's just assume there's only two of you. For instance, Rachael and Megan. They share the same interests, they share the same hobbies, they share the same whatever you can think of. So, now your name's Rachael and your BFF Megan is .. uh, going through a very complicated situation. For example, her mom went away with another man while your mom is nagging you every day, then shortly afterwards, her sister went off and married someone else while your sister is still annoying you.
So when Megan comes to you and say, 'oh Rachael! I feel so weary, I don't know what to do anymore with my mom and sis gone in such a short period of time. I miss them so much!'
I'm pretty much sure you can't do anything about it even though you want to help her. and there's a high possibility you would answer her, 'how can you miss them? remember the time when your sister poured ketchup all over your new dress because she 'slipped her fingers'? and when your mom was there she always believed you couldn't do better than your elder sister?'
do you know they wouldn't want you to say that? If they are kind, they would smile and say 'yeah' then after a minute, they would tell you, 'uh, I've gotta go already .. my dog needs a walk' and if they just feel too heavy-burdened, they would just snap and walk off on you. Best friends or not, wth they would say.
Can you understand what it feels like? do you know what to do that she'll feel better? can you assure her that she'll be alright and you'll be there WHENEVER she needs you? yeah. Who can?
can I tell you a secret?well, here's the secret whether you like it or not : my God can. my Jesus can.
I can hear you saying what? well, yes. I assure you with everything I have, if you would just sit down, look up to heaven and then say, 'Jesus, I feel so weary. and I've read a cuckoo-head's blog that if I would just do this, you would help me. I believe you will help me. Because this cuckoo-head said she assure me with everything she has .. even her pisang gorengs.'
and also, I assure you that if you go to the tokong tokong cina and go tok your way to idunnohowfar your burdens will still stay on your shoulders, unless if you seek the Alpha and the Omega. and even if you step on needles and poke blong sharp sticks through your body, your sins will not be forgiven, unless if you accept Christ as your Saviour.
why am I so sure? dude, why do you think I'm sure? of course I've been through some stuff that I thought was hell but how many of you actually KNOWS what hell is like? you think it's cool to be in hell? NO. it's hot, friggin hot, hot and you don't want to be there is all I can tell you.
come to Jesus would you?
your heart could be evil or pure. would you come and let Jesus hold you by the hand, comfort you through valleys of darkness?
20080918
HAHAHAHA -.-
I was drenched wet in the rain and when I walked into the porch and stare into the total darkened room, I see my sister (who is suppose to fetch me back from school but apparently told me to walk back home instead because she had SO many things to do) sitting in front of the computer screen. She turned towards me, gave me her lousysignature smile :D and said 'sorry' with a laugh, then she added, 'i was at the car at 12.40pm straight'
I apparently reached wherehercarwassupposedtobebutnotthereanymore at 12.46pm.
but Hallelujah! I've burned some fat, met Mr. Lee (bio teacher) along the way & Soo Wei Wen but i think he didn't saw me cuz he was busy laughing away about sth, met the group of malay guys which I haven't saw for ages, convinced myself I would be sick and don't have to go school tomorrow but apparently i'm not sick at all, got to hear a very funny conversation between to Chong Hwa guys behind me about failing maths HAHAHAHA.
o yeah, YVONNE! your sejarah book is with me. (: cuz Quan Ju returned it on the last period but you weren't in class and I thought you were at somewhere far off so I didn't took the text book and went to Chemistry lab to find you and kacau Cik Shariza a little so.. remember to take back your book tomorrow or else, well, I'll forget. you know how old I am right?
All will see,
I apparently reached wherehercarwassupposedtobebutnotthereanymore at 12.46pm.
but Hallelujah! I've burned some fat, met Mr. Lee (bio teacher) along the way & Soo Wei Wen but i think he didn't saw me cuz he was busy laughing away about sth, met the group of malay guys which I haven't saw for ages, convinced myself I would be sick and don't have to go school tomorrow but apparently i'm not sick at all, got to hear a very funny conversation between to Chong Hwa guys behind me about failing maths HAHAHAHA.
o yeah, YVONNE! your sejarah book is with me. (: cuz Quan Ju returned it on the last period but you weren't in class and I thought you were at somewhere far off so I didn't took the text book and went to Chemistry lab to find you and kacau Cik Shariza a little so.. remember to take back your book tomorrow or else, well, I'll forget. you know how old I am right?
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All will see,
20080726
my super long week.
it's been a very, very, very odd week.
First off, I've gone to school late twice in a row. which I never experienced before? on Monday, I posted a weird post about what shrugging would bring to a person; that happened because I was late.
Tuesday, God's mercy was on me. I got past w/o being denda-ed. But I failed to pass up my Chinese Essay book. result of laziness. xD
On Wednesday, I stayed back to read up some of the books for 'Read and be Rewarded' program but apparently, the teachers were having their meeting up in the library. So I wasted one whole afternoon, doing nothing except for nothing. decided to finish up my homeworks on that day but slept through the whole afternoon + night. no tuition mahh ! 9:
Thursday, I stayed back again for the program but only managed to finish three books in school because I went up late due to reasons which I think I should not disclose. borrowed 2 books but didn't read it at all/finish my homework either because I was busy watching Lilo & Stitch in between the time of when having a duel with my kakak in badminton and reaching home by bus.
Friday (or yesterday), reached home at 4pm because my sister was practicing in school for choir presentation on Hari Pameran (28/07/08). I went to the prayer meeting during that time and I saw yvonne the sotong cried! bwahahahahahahahha. switched on to my blog when I reached home for a while and found no obvious visitors. ]: so, switched off the computer and went jogging. that sweet feeling of running despite being almost out of breathe still rocks! bathed and walked up to HSG to find Jun Fai and a pink shirt guy waiting. They were about to fetch
me to a party in Wisma FGA.
I got to meet loads of people that I've heard their names from either Beh or yvonne the sotong for the past 2 or 3 weeks! for example:
-Richard (the one that claim to be 25 yrs old; which also say I have a beautiful name ((: )
- Xue Qi (the song leader and the one that called me to attend another function tonight; which of course was rejected)
- YeQi (the one whom prayed for me during alter call.. come to think of it, why did she came to me only? -.- )
- Cui Wen (?) ( the super leng lui 18 yrs old which doesn't looks like an 18 yrs old)
- Xing Hui/Deborah ( the one I find most interesting HAHAHAHA )
then there were others too which I can't remember their names because I never asked. xD
Loads of non-Christians came which accepted Christ after that. God's grace was DEFINITELY with us! Praise The Lord for that!! But when Li Feng (?) hit the hammer against the giant nail (sth to do with the msg he shared), it sent bolts of electricity down my spines and I dunno, my heart ached with agony? I was practically screaming in my head, 'DON'T HIT IT ANYMORE.' I was on the edge of crying, ah Beh was also. (:
During the alter call, something popped into my head what popped through every time during worship for the past few months, 'where are you, Lord?' for months, I've pushed that thought to the back of my head by replacing this senteces, 'where am I, Lord?' but everytime during worship it would be the same sentence that popped up first, then only I'll replace it. But was it right? was it right to replace it and do nothing about it?
then Ye Qi suddenly appeared and asked me if she could pray for me. that night's message was about the son that demanded his share of the family's fortune and went travelling but wasted all his money and decided to go back to his father. it's in Luke 15, go find yourselves if you're interested in the story. -.- this Ye Qi asked me out of all the questions she could ask, 'do you feel like God's not by your side everytime you pray/when you're doing your daily routine?' well, duh. of course I said yes. so she prayed.
after I off my phone because Alvin was bugging me, I silently asked, 'so, I was expecting that I could sense you now just like I could sense a being beside me after that prayer, now how come there isn't anything?' I waited for a while and raising my inner voice a little, 'where are You?'
silence.
I got impatient and shouted in my heart, 'WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU?! you promised to be there when I asked, so WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU???!!!' yeah, I was practically swearing. but I was cutted off by Li Feng for ending the song they were singing and started asking around for testimonies by the new Christians. During that time, Ye Qi asked me, 'why were you crying?'
what was I supposed to say? anyways, I said, 'I dunno.' and waited for a while before I continued, 'because for a very long time already whenever I'm worshipping God I would be asking, 'O Lord, where are you?' ' then she cut off my sentence by replying, 'the Bible said do not test Your God, you should have faith! why you were crying was because God touched your heart.'
you know what I said in return? I think she got a shock.
I told her, 'why I was actually crying was because I still couldn't know for sure if He was there..' she said, 'hmmm? impossible. there's no other reason than why you would suddenly cry when you're speaking to me (my voice was quivering when I attempted to finish my sentence), correct? That proves that God is already here with you.'
then before I could say anything, Li Feng turned to me and asked, 'what about over there? hmm?'
Silence.
I was asking Ye Qi, 'what should I say? O.o' then Li Feng told everyone, 'I know her from our Sentosa's Fridays prayer meeting, she attends that meeting. *turn to me* yes, can we hear from you?' I think Ye Qi was more time-conscious than me so she took the microphone from me and spoke what she said to me. and left out the part where I said I still didn't know for sure where God was. pffffft.
anyway after that sotong and Beh ran up to me after service and shouted in my ears, 'I LOVE YOU!!!!!' O.o okay, okay. I love you guys too, but why are you guys telling me that? then the rest of the night was of BLANK.
this morning (or Saturday), I woke up in a daze with full boost energy that kept me skipping through the whole day. helped out with the preperation for Hari Pameran for both Nature Society and Scripture Union from 8am till 4pm. Scripture Union's Heaven's side's angels are really cute! but they kept falling off the ceiling because the fan was too strong. then Joshua said, 'they are fallen angels! God banished them from heaven!' LOL.
then it was already 4pm when everyone called me one after another, continuously, making me walking in and out of the classroom more frequent than the wind would. Sheou Jun and Alvin was waiting in the canteen by the time I walked down. then suddenly yvonne and jingQi appeared and called all of sapo 6 together to take picture ::
First off, I've gone to school late twice in a row. which I never experienced before? on Monday, I posted a weird post about what shrugging would bring to a person; that happened because I was late.
Tuesday, God's mercy was on me. I got past w/o being denda-ed. But I failed to pass up my Chinese Essay book. result of laziness. xD
On Wednesday, I stayed back to read up some of the books for 'Read and be Rewarded' program but apparently, the teachers were having their meeting up in the library. So I wasted one whole afternoon, doing nothing except for nothing. decided to finish up my homeworks on that day but slept through the whole afternoon + night. no tuition mahh ! 9:
Thursday, I stayed back again for the program but only managed to finish three books in school because I went up late due to reasons which I think I should not disclose. borrowed 2 books but didn't read it at all/finish my homework either because I was busy watching Lilo & Stitch in between the time of when having a duel with my kakak in badminton and reaching home by bus.
Friday (or yesterday), reached home at 4pm because my sister was practicing in school for choir presentation on Hari Pameran (28/07/08). I went to the prayer meeting during that time and I saw yvonne the sotong cried! bwahahahahahahahha. switched on to my blog when I reached home for a while and found no obvious visitors. ]: so, switched off the computer and went jogging. that sweet feeling of running despite being almost out of breathe still rocks! bathed and walked up to HSG to find Jun Fai and a pink shirt guy waiting. They were about to fetch
me to a party in Wisma FGA.
I got to meet loads of people that I've heard their names from either Beh or yvonne the sotong for the past 2 or 3 weeks! for example:
-Richard (the one that claim to be 25 yrs old; which also say I have a beautiful name ((: )
- Xue Qi (the song leader and the one that called me to attend another function tonight; which of course was rejected)
- YeQi (the one whom prayed for me during alter call.. come to think of it, why did she came to me only? -.- )
- Cui Wen (?) ( the super leng lui 18 yrs old which doesn't looks like an 18 yrs old)
- Xing Hui/Deborah ( the one I find most interesting HAHAHAHA )
then there were others too which I can't remember their names because I never asked. xD
Loads of non-Christians came which accepted Christ after that. God's grace was DEFINITELY with us! Praise The Lord for that!! But when Li Feng (?) hit the hammer against the giant nail (sth to do with the msg he shared), it sent bolts of electricity down my spines and I dunno, my heart ached with agony? I was practically screaming in my head, 'DON'T HIT IT ANYMORE.' I was on the edge of crying, ah Beh was also. (:
During the alter call, something popped into my head what popped through every time during worship for the past few months, 'where are you, Lord?' for months, I've pushed that thought to the back of my head by replacing this senteces, 'where am I, Lord?' but everytime during worship it would be the same sentence that popped up first, then only I'll replace it. But was it right? was it right to replace it and do nothing about it?
then Ye Qi suddenly appeared and asked me if she could pray for me. that night's message was about the son that demanded his share of the family's fortune and went travelling but wasted all his money and decided to go back to his father. it's in Luke 15, go find yourselves if you're interested in the story. -.- this Ye Qi asked me out of all the questions she could ask, 'do you feel like God's not by your side everytime you pray/when you're doing your daily routine?' well, duh. of course I said yes. so she prayed.
after I off my phone because Alvin was bugging me, I silently asked, 'so, I was expecting that I could sense you now just like I could sense a being beside me after that prayer, now how come there isn't anything?' I waited for a while and raising my inner voice a little, 'where are You?'
silence.
I got impatient and shouted in my heart, 'WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU?! you promised to be there when I asked, so WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU???!!!' yeah, I was practically swearing. but I was cutted off by Li Feng for ending the song they were singing and started asking around for testimonies by the new Christians. During that time, Ye Qi asked me, 'why were you crying?'
what was I supposed to say? anyways, I said, 'I dunno.' and waited for a while before I continued, 'because for a very long time already whenever I'm worshipping God I would be asking, 'O Lord, where are you?' ' then she cut off my sentence by replying, 'the Bible said do not test Your God, you should have faith! why you were crying was because God touched your heart.'
you know what I said in return? I think she got a shock.
I told her, 'why I was actually crying was because I still couldn't know for sure if He was there..' she said, 'hmmm? impossible. there's no other reason than why you would suddenly cry when you're speaking to me (my voice was quivering when I attempted to finish my sentence), correct? That proves that God is already here with you.'
then before I could say anything, Li Feng turned to me and asked, 'what about over there? hmm?'
Silence.
I was asking Ye Qi, 'what should I say? O.o' then Li Feng told everyone, 'I know her from our Sentosa's Fridays prayer meeting, she attends that meeting. *turn to me* yes, can we hear from you?' I think Ye Qi was more time-conscious than me so she took the microphone from me and spoke what she said to me. and left out the part where I said I still didn't know for sure where God was. pffffft.
anyway after that sotong and Beh ran up to me after service and shouted in my ears, 'I LOVE YOU!!!!!' O.o okay, okay. I love you guys too, but why are you guys telling me that? then the rest of the night was of BLANK.
this morning (or Saturday), I woke up in a daze with full boost energy that kept me skipping through the whole day. helped out with the preperation for Hari Pameran for both Nature Society and Scripture Union from 8am till 4pm. Scripture Union's Heaven's side's angels are really cute! but they kept falling off the ceiling because the fan was too strong. then Joshua said, 'they are fallen angels! God banished them from heaven!' LOL.
then it was already 4pm when everyone called me one after another, continuously, making me walking in and out of the classroom more frequent than the wind would. Sheou Jun and Alvin was waiting in the canteen by the time I walked down. then suddenly yvonne and jingQi appeared and called all of sapo 6 together to take picture ::
my hair was flying all over the place AND my head was too huge!; they all looked SO happy!!
eh. I was the odd one out. zomg.
my personal favourite picture. (:
after making Sheou Jun and Alvin wait for a very long time, we finally set off to Sunway Pyramid! to give moral support to mr. Lee Tai Foong , he and his school mates took part in the Young-something-something-something. xD then Alvin was cheated into buying 2 "stress ball". so they call it.
then Foong left us three alone to walk arnd Sunway which caused SUPER damage to my foot soles, which still hurts now. anyway, summing every single event up, we wandered like lost souls, ate "lunch" at Station Kopitiam, and I got to eat my ah-ne-ne egg. xP *inside joke, don't bother to ask*
had been CENTURIES since I've last tasted them. (: but the workers there didn't let ME do the breaking egg part. I would've loved to do so.
we went into Anime-tech, a comic book store, and Tower Records after that. then it was 8.30pm already, fast eh? so we went back with Sheou Jun's dad dropping us off at the Central Hypermarket's bus station. Thank the Lord for that, if not we would be waiting in the dark for a U76 to appear. haha!
when we were waiting for Sheou Jun's dad to come, Alvin bursted one of the "stress ball" he bought just a couple of hours before. which Foong assured that it would definitely not break. xD
see blue pants with white powder?
In the car, I spotted something beautiful : my knapsack was the EXACT same football team as the shirt-like-pillow in Sheou Jun's dad's car was. blogger said max upload 5 pictures per time. and I'm lazy to upload again, so.. no picture! (: I've got a picture of it though, thanks to Alvin's phone's flash camera. pfft.
then I started thinking of the previous night's incident when I convinced myself into believing that God was a million miles away from me. my brain analysed things differently tonight. I'm thinking I'm being too based on feelings alone.
Feelings. pfffft. why do women rely on such a thing? It somehow seems stupid to me, all of a sudden. Ps. Reuben once preached about feeling things; of how stupid it is to rely on such when it comes to God. Is that what he said? If I've misquoted, I'm terribly sorry. but I've learnt a thing, Faith. I've finally understood what Ye Qi tried to say. LOL.
to have such simple faith of knowing that the presence of God is amongst us. Emmanuel. you don't need a feeling to know whether He's there or not, why must He proof to you that He's there? why must He do so every single worship session? Wouldn't it be something like when you learn how to ride a bicycle and your mom/dad would hold the bicycle all throughout your life of when you cycle, giving you assurance that they're there? mom/dad loves me. mom/dad wants me to learn how to ride a bicycle. same as it is, Jesus loves me. Jesus wants me to learn how to ride on life with my faith streghtened.
He will ALWAYS be there. A spectator, guiding me. guiding you. when we fall, He will stretch out His arms and pull us up; just like how your mom/dad would do when you're learning how to ride a bicycle - he/she will let go without telling you, and when you fall off, they will rush over and help you up, insisting that you continue, so that you'll learn.
and I'm glad enough to know that. all praise goes to Jesus. (: Amen.
Thus ends my blog post.
are you by any chance dozing off already? xD thousand apologies then, I just had to tell the world this news I've got.
I pray that the Hari Pameran will be effective, and will suceed in educating people in knowing more about heaven and hell.
God bless. (:
signed with love,
Rebecca.
p.s. days are coloured through reference from here.
20080714
my 80th post!
with a good news. ((:
guess what?
my neighbour, ms. Tan Shen Wen, she accepted Christ too! I was going online, my first time in a lot of times of going online finally switched on msn, it was for tomorrow's EST presentation. yeah, teachers and their assignments. pfft.
then she, that doesn't usually talk to me on msn or any other day(?) because of her inhuman busy life suddenly comes and greet me reeeally warmly. then we chat chat chat and she told me the good news!
life really IS great. to think that when we were kids we spent everyday together. such times. (: I'm just uberly glad that her name's jotted down in the Book of Life. Praise the Lord! for His grace is sufficient. ((: now, who's next to tell me the good news? tralala~
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zomg. I havent bathe yet. -.-
anyways, my brother (elder) wanted to be pro in MS; therefore downloaded AncientMS. xP ; means MapleStory Private Server. 50 times the experience, drop rate, and messos. $$ ~
so, I was curious and started playing too! although in the beginning I didnt' knew how to register for an ID. and behold! I'm the almighty level 99 Priest now. hahaha~ the zombies all get damage even when I heal. xD kill 10 zombies = level up 1 time. syoknye!
hmm, I guess yes, that's it. Oh about FRIM. pictures are with Sheou Jun, so until she gives me the pictures, I'm not updating a word even. though my faithful readers would be bored out of their minds when I update it. haha; so yes. be prepared to be bored out of your minds.
God bless.
by yours truly,
guess what?
my neighbour, ms. Tan Shen Wen, she accepted Christ too! I was going online, my first time in a lot of times of going online finally switched on msn, it was for tomorrow's EST presentation. yeah, teachers and their assignments. pfft.
then she, that doesn't usually talk to me on msn or any other day(?) because of her inhuman busy life suddenly comes and greet me reeeally warmly. then we chat chat chat and she told me the good news!
life really IS great. to think that when we were kids we spent everyday together. such times. (: I'm just uberly glad that her name's jotted down in the Book of Life. Praise the Lord! for His grace is sufficient. ((: now, who's next to tell me the good news? tralala~
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zomg. I havent bathe yet. -.-
anyways, my brother (elder) wanted to be pro in MS; therefore downloaded AncientMS. xP ; means MapleStory Private Server. 50 times the experience, drop rate, and messos. $$ ~
so, I was curious and started playing too! although in the beginning I didnt' knew how to register for an ID. and behold! I'm the almighty level 99 Priest now. hahaha~ the zombies all get damage even when I heal. xD kill 10 zombies = level up 1 time. syoknye!
hmm, I guess yes, that's it. Oh about FRIM. pictures are with Sheou Jun, so until she gives me the pictures, I'm not updating a word even. though my faithful readers would be bored out of their minds when I update it. haha; so yes. be prepared to be bored out of your minds.
God bless.
by yours truly,
20080711
a year of harvest.
today's the day when Yvonne will go to some-weird-name hotel and get her practical piano exam sitted. and today's also the day when something weird happened. to me.
you know the prayer meeting I've been going to every recess and I said it suits my taste buds? yeah well , I went today, too. with BehBeh~ we saw Pn. Ong in the half open Koperasi room door and she urged me to give her the carta organisasi which I was suppose to complete weeks ago. LOL. anyway, the prayer meeting started.
so I was praying then suddenly the guy (whatever his name is) said, 'now, we would like to ask Rebecca to pray for the GoodNews to be spread around the school.. the 'fu yin' .. something-something..' (in chinese)
guess what my reaction was? -.-
I went 'ha?' Okay, so it's my 5th time there. but WHY ME? anyway, I prayed a really short prayer. I wasn't really glad with myself for saying 'ha?' tho ..I wasn't expecting it! ; BehBeh was being super supportive by saying Amen all the time. thank you (: lol.
HAH, to yvonne, the girl that's suppose to take her piano exam today, you missed out a chance of seeing me pray. 9:
the after-school gathering was wonderful! although I WAS supposed to go to SU but I thought BehBeh would be really さびしい ; so I just went la. it seems to me that the songs we sing never changes. but there was a new song added today : JESUS, NAME ABOVE ALL NAMES . it's a four sentence song, short, but nice.
and it was the first time I saw so many people cry together in one place. oh yeah, do pray for BehBeh btw. yeah! she shared something great today. she said that last night, she asked her mom what if she believed Jesus. Then her mom didn't membantah/agree. so, neutral it is! yay ((: so, continue to pray, that one day her parents will agree to it and even come to Christ to!
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yesterday, I did finish my nilam and everything at school and went back via metro no.19 .. guess who I saw?
mr. Lee Tai Foong.
OMG. OMG. OMG. I was reading Fruit Basket vol. 21 ; then someone messed up my beautiful, precious hair. oh okay, it's not beautiful but at least it's precious. I actually turned my head and found no one. padahal he was sitting right behind me. in an angle not really easy to be spotted(?); whatever. so I saw him. zomg.
life's weird huh? it pops people out when you least expect it. pfft. I should have pulled his face in opposite directions. gah, missed the chance.
I'm going to FRIM tomorrow! pray that I don't get bitten by leeches/snakes/mosquitos. ahaha, remember :
you know the prayer meeting I've been going to every recess and I said it suits my taste buds? yeah well , I went today, too. with BehBeh~ we saw Pn. Ong in the half open Koperasi room door and she urged me to give her the carta organisasi which I was suppose to complete weeks ago. LOL. anyway, the prayer meeting started.
so I was praying then suddenly the guy (whatever his name is) said, 'now, we would like to ask Rebecca to pray for the GoodNews to be spread around the school.. the 'fu yin' .. something-something..' (in chinese)
guess what my reaction was? -.-
I went 'ha?' Okay, so it's my 5th time there. but WHY ME? anyway, I prayed a really short prayer. I wasn't really glad with myself for saying 'ha?' tho ..I wasn't expecting it! ; BehBeh was being super supportive by saying Amen all the time. thank you (: lol.
HAH, to yvonne, the girl that's suppose to take her piano exam today, you missed out a chance of seeing me pray. 9:
the after-school gathering was wonderful! although I WAS supposed to go to SU but I thought BehBeh would be really さびしい ; so I just went la. it seems to me that the songs we sing never changes. but there was a new song added today : JESUS, NAME ABOVE ALL NAMES . it's a four sentence song, short, but nice.
and it was the first time I saw so many people cry together in one place. oh yeah, do pray for BehBeh btw. yeah! she shared something great today. she said that last night, she asked her mom what if she believed Jesus. Then her mom didn't membantah/agree. so, neutral it is! yay ((: so, continue to pray, that one day her parents will agree to it and even come to Christ to!
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yesterday, I did finish my nilam and everything at school and went back via metro no.19 .. guess who I saw?
mr. Lee Tai Foong.
OMG. OMG. OMG. I was reading Fruit Basket vol. 21 ; then someone messed up my beautiful, precious hair. oh okay, it's not beautiful but at least it's precious. I actually turned my head and found no one. padahal he was sitting right behind me. in an angle not really easy to be spotted(?); whatever. so I saw him. zomg.
life's weird huh? it pops people out when you least expect it. pfft. I should have pulled his face in opposite directions. gah, missed the chance.
I'm going to FRIM tomorrow! pray that I don't get bitten by leeches/snakes/mosquitos. ahaha, remember :
"I will bless those who bless you, and whoever curses you I
will curse; ..."Genesis 12:3
tata darlings. (:
God bless.
I needa burn some fat now.
20080708
Dear July,
i have to stop going online. no, i should fast on computer so that at least i would finish my homeworks. my mountain high heap of homeworks.
my weekend was super packed filled. friday, I was all 'screw homeworks, I have two more days to complete them anyway..' so i went online the whole friggin afternoon and went to sleep.
on saturday, i used the computer again until 10. when my mom bugged me to get ready if I wanted to follow her to the train station. so anyway, i was in MBS until 2.00pm(?) and then i went home, use the computer AGAIN. zZ, then it was 3.00pm ; I threw myself on my bed and slept. until 5.43pm(?) , my mom knocked on my door and asked, 'i thought you wanted to go youth one? ' i mumbled a little something and got bathed and followed her to go out and makan dinner. because she got a 4/4 for her PTK 48 exams i'm telling that to Pn. Toh tmr in tuition. hahahahahaand she was going to belanja her friend. why miss out free food?
but apparently, we got lost on the way. when we were sick of looking at the signboards which only had 'putrajaya' printed on them, they (sis & mom) started singing this really old song about why the sun is still shining when it's the end of the world .. so I recorded it! but when I started recording, they already sung finish. here's the video tho.
ha Ha. i always laugh when I watch that. it's uhh, kind of not in the right position. because I took it with my phone.
speaking of my phone, the inner part of the screen retak-ed. Because on Monday morning, I was so tired I couldn't get myself up but my sister was being a pain and somehow, my mother phoned me and made my temper burst. so out of anger, I threw the stupid phone towards my sister's bed, but apparently, it bounced and hit the wall beside the bed. LOL. I was like.. ' nooooo!!!! ' then I quickly fixed the battery back and found out that 3/4 of the screen was completely white. zomg. I have to waste RM100 to change the screen now. sigh.
we were in Equine park some minutes later anyway, after dinner, I went hunting for yvonne's present. ahahaha, I haven't wrapped it yet. until now, tsk. then we accidentally went into Lovely Lace. I immediately remembered Alvin and his house. x)
on Sunday,
because SOME people kept on pestering me to reach Beh's house earlier, I went to FGA's morning service. and amazingly, the message was a mixture of was Ps. Daniel preached on the previous week and what Ps. Reuben preached during pre-M.A.D camp. so, it ended at 9.30am ; when I thought it would end at 10am.
I walked all the way to Beh's house and found out that Sue Yin reached before me. ): no more no. 1. zZ .. tonikake. YVONNE. the birthday girl, reached latest. at 11.06am. oh yeah,
she got herself a new sony ericsson phone. go, rob her. then I found out Beh accepted Christ just the night before. time's changing fast~ yeah, so we walked all the way down to the pasar. (my 2nd time walking the same road that day) we crossed the bridge and assumed that particular U76 would bring us to Sunway.
mana tahu.
sunway is in the opposite direction. WHy la did we crossed the bridge?? so, we wasted half an hour. going all the way to brickfields station on the bus and back again. so finally we reached at 2pm. thank God we reached. we ate fast food for lunch. sounhealthy. then we went ice skating. it frigginly costed RM18 on Sundays.
I learned how to skate! and I flew down 5 times. it was 2 times Beh's fault. why? because .. you know sunway's sakting ring. the side opposite the entrance, that's my bad luck spot. ): she just HAD to say, 'wah~ it's here again.' then miraculously, I fell down. it's like some sort of a curse or something. o yeah! and then ALWAYS when anyone fall down la, there's this red shirted guy that would help me up. well, thank God for him, because Beh can never pull me up. later on when we were going back, we saw him again behind us. stalker. -.-
I almost ran into a girl's fingers, luckily lah.. i only ran over her gloves because screw me for not knowing how to stop. and there was this very super yongsui punye person that wanted to 'kao' sue yin. so we (beh, me and yvonne) did our best to protect her by pulling her together with us whenever we can. apparently, she knows how to skate .. and therefore, her 5 rounds = my 1 round. how la, can we pull her with us?
so at 5pm, after taking pictures and letting yvonne belanja us eat mcFlurry. LOL. we went to the bus stop opposite to get a bus back home. I was rushing so that I could get to school at 7.30pm but apparently, the rapidKLs weren't very cooperative. the U76 came only after we waited for half an hour. but thank God also la, because I think we (yvonne and i -- sue yin have her father to fetch her back) got the chance to calm beh down, assuring her that her decision of accepting Christ was correct, because she kept thinking about why she cried her heart out the previous night. she had NO idea why. neither do we. but I remembered my auntie's testimony about when she accepted Christ too, just a week ago.
yeah, when I FINALLY got down the station, it was 7.06pm. I ran~~ across the street on the 'zebra road ' to get on another bus, BUT there weren't any RapidKLs for me to get my ass into ; so, I ran all the way back. remember I said I had to be in school by 7.30pm? yeah, I was expected to watch my sister singing in the national choir.
I think I lost more than 20kgs that day. LOL. but I've already gained them all back la, considering the amount of food I've been stuffing down my throat. I think next time I'll operate my stomach and ask the doctor not to sew it back. so I can just simply stuff it into my stomach without having the chew, chew, chew, swallow steps. too slow. haha
anyway, I reached in time with my mom. apparently, she wanted to watch her beloved daughter too. it was okay. except that the Frankenstein wasn't singing loud enough for my going-deaf ears to hear. it was a small singing-play. by the national ochestra and choir.
I almost fell asleep when the violinist was playing her solo piece. her 1 song is i dunno, 10 minutes? my brains were rotting from the inside by then. though the music was really nice. nice enough to lull me to sleep, thank you, whatever your name is. then the choir team I came with said to go back during the 15 minutes break. and I saw a lengchai! ho ho ho. I got his picture, but it's blur. tsk. no way I'm posting it up. He's MINE! gahahahaha.
oh yea, have I mentioned that I really, absolutely, 100%-ly very very dislike this ms. Tan Elaine's sister's boyfriend? pfft. he's acting like he knows everything. sigh, if he ever marries ms. Shirley Tan, I would feel SOOOOO sorry for Elaine. my apologies, if Elaine thinks he's a good person and not a pain in the anywhere-you-can-think-of.
yeah.
every recess now going for prayer meeting. suits my tastebuds well, I don't usually eat anyway. sigh, I hope there's SU this friday. for some reasons or another. (: till then, I need to find informations for my oral test.
infinite Xs and Os.
praise the Lord!
my weekend was super packed filled. friday, I was all 'screw homeworks, I have two more days to complete them anyway..' so i went online the whole friggin afternoon and went to sleep.
on saturday, i used the computer again until 10. when my mom bugged me to get ready if I wanted to follow her to the train station. so anyway, i was in MBS until 2.00pm(?) and then i went home, use the computer AGAIN. zZ, then it was 3.00pm ; I threw myself on my bed and slept. until 5.43pm(?) , my mom knocked on my door and asked, 'i thought you wanted to go youth one? ' i mumbled a little something and got bathed and followed her to go out and makan dinner. because she got a 4/4 for her PTK 48 exams i'm telling that to Pn. Toh tmr in tuition. hahahahahaand she was going to belanja her friend. why miss out free food?
but apparently, we got lost on the way. when we were sick of looking at the signboards which only had 'putrajaya' printed on them, they (sis & mom) started singing this really old song about why the sun is still shining when it's the end of the world .. so I recorded it! but when I started recording, they already sung finish. here's the video tho.
ha Ha. i always laugh when I watch that. it's uhh, kind of not in the right position. because I took it with my phone.
speaking of my phone, the inner part of the screen retak-ed. Because on Monday morning, I was so tired I couldn't get myself up but my sister was being a pain and somehow, my mother phoned me and made my temper burst. so out of anger, I threw the stupid phone towards my sister's bed, but apparently, it bounced and hit the wall beside the bed. LOL. I was like.. ' nooooo!!!! ' then I quickly fixed the battery back and found out that 3/4 of the screen was completely white. zomg. I have to waste RM100 to change the screen now. sigh.
we were in Equine park some minutes later anyway, after dinner, I went hunting for yvonne's present. ahahaha, I haven't wrapped it yet. until now, tsk. then we accidentally went into Lovely Lace. I immediately remembered Alvin and his house. x)
on Sunday,
because SOME people kept on pestering me to reach Beh's house earlier, I went to FGA's morning service. and amazingly, the message was a mixture of was Ps. Daniel preached on the previous week and what Ps. Reuben preached during pre-M.A.D camp. so, it ended at 9.30am ; when I thought it would end at 10am.
I walked all the way to Beh's house and found out that Sue Yin reached before me. ): no more no. 1. zZ .. tonikake. YVONNE. the birthday girl, reached latest. at 11.06am. oh yeah,
Happy belated birthday, sotong!
she got herself a new sony ericsson phone. go, rob her. then I found out Beh accepted Christ just the night before. time's changing fast~ yeah, so we walked all the way down to the pasar. (my 2nd time walking the same road that day) we crossed the bridge and assumed that particular U76 would bring us to Sunway.
mana tahu.
sunway is in the opposite direction. WHy la did we crossed the bridge?? so, we wasted half an hour. going all the way to brickfields station on the bus and back again. so finally we reached at 2pm. thank God we reached. we ate fast food for lunch. sounhealthy. then we went ice skating. it frigginly costed RM18 on Sundays.
I learned how to skate! and I flew down 5 times. it was 2 times Beh's fault. why? because .. you know sunway's sakting ring. the side opposite the entrance, that's my bad luck spot. ): she just HAD to say, 'wah~ it's here again.' then miraculously, I fell down. it's like some sort of a curse or something. o yeah! and then ALWAYS when anyone fall down la, there's this red shirted guy that would help me up. well, thank God for him, because Beh can never pull me up. later on when we were going back, we saw him again behind us. stalker. -.-
I almost ran into a girl's fingers, luckily lah.. i only ran over her gloves because screw me for not knowing how to stop. and there was this very super yongsui punye person that wanted to 'kao' sue yin. so we (beh, me and yvonne) did our best to protect her by pulling her together with us whenever we can. apparently, she knows how to skate .. and therefore, her 5 rounds = my 1 round. how la, can we pull her with us?
so at 5pm, after taking pictures and letting yvonne belanja us eat mcFlurry. LOL. we went to the bus stop opposite to get a bus back home. I was rushing so that I could get to school at 7.30pm but apparently, the rapidKLs weren't very cooperative. the U76 came only after we waited for half an hour. but thank God also la, because I think we (yvonne and i -- sue yin have her father to fetch her back) got the chance to calm beh down, assuring her that her decision of accepting Christ was correct, because she kept thinking about why she cried her heart out the previous night. she had NO idea why. neither do we. but I remembered my auntie's testimony about when she accepted Christ too, just a week ago.
yeah, when I FINALLY got down the station, it was 7.06pm. I ran~~ across the street on the 'zebra road ' to get on another bus, BUT there weren't any RapidKLs for me to get my ass into ; so, I ran all the way back. remember I said I had to be in school by 7.30pm? yeah, I was expected to watch my sister singing in the national choir.
I think I lost more than 20kgs that day. LOL. but I've already gained them all back la, considering the amount of food I've been stuffing down my throat. I think next time I'll operate my stomach and ask the doctor not to sew it back. so I can just simply stuff it into my stomach without having the chew, chew, chew, swallow steps. too slow. haha
anyway, I reached in time with my mom. apparently, she wanted to watch her beloved daughter too. it was okay. except that the Frankenstein wasn't singing loud enough for my going-deaf ears to hear. it was a small singing-play. by the national ochestra and choir.
I almost fell asleep when the violinist was playing her solo piece. her 1 song is i dunno, 10 minutes? my brains were rotting from the inside by then. though the music was really nice. nice enough to lull me to sleep, thank you, whatever your name is. then the choir team I came with said to go back during the 15 minutes break. and I saw a lengchai! ho ho ho. I got his picture, but it's blur. tsk. no way I'm posting it up. He's MINE! gahahahaha.
oh yea, have I mentioned that I really, absolutely, 100%-ly very very dislike this ms. Tan Elaine's sister's boyfriend? pfft. he's acting like he knows everything. sigh, if he ever marries ms. Shirley Tan, I would feel SOOOOO sorry for Elaine. my apologies, if Elaine thinks he's a good person and not a pain in the anywhere-you-can-think-of.
yeah.
every recess now going for prayer meeting. suits my tastebuds well, I don't usually eat anyway. sigh, I hope there's SU this friday. for some reasons or another. (: till then, I need to find informations for my oral test.
infinite Xs and Os.
praise the Lord!
20080622
67th.
bear with my randomeness.
"why are you wimpering in doubt? don't you know that Master is on our side? be strong and courageous!"
why are you afraid? why are you taking a step backwards? aren't you moving in front? why are you caught up? why are you laid back? why are you not hyped? why are you not excited? what got you to stop? what made you stop believing?
knock, and you'll be answered; ask, and it shall be given;
had you knocked on heaven's door? had you ask upon your need? well, you better do if you like to have something get done. (:
"why are you wimpering in doubt? don't you know that Master is on our side? be strong and courageous!"
why are you afraid? why are you taking a step backwards? aren't you moving in front? why are you caught up? why are you laid back? why are you not hyped? why are you not excited? what got you to stop? what made you stop believing?
knock, and you'll be answered; ask, and it shall be given;
had you knocked on heaven's door? had you ask upon your need? well, you better do if you like to have something get done. (:
20080607
FGA crusade
I come in peace, earTHLings.
^^D
FGA's crusade tonight ROCKS. hahaha , suckers that didnt went serves you right. not like I invited anyone lah. : D but THAT PERSON who backed out last minute, all i have to say is, wasted LAH.
' hell ' seems like a place I even more don't want to go to. not like I want to go to before. and so ,from today onwards.. any jokes on hell won't be entertained. Literally, seriously.
it's irony,
just last week Pastor spoke abt the end of time. yes, spirit man. don't be lazy anymore. read your Bible and pray every day to grow. to not waver in your Faith, that gift from Father. and to follow His footsteps.
back to the crusade today,
the speaker was from Indonesia and he touched a weeny bit abt his unwillingly went trip to hell ,spoke abt the faces he saw, the tortures they went through. and he shouted ,'YOU THINK THOSE PEOPLE ARE DEAD? NO! THEY ARE ALIVE, AND LIVING DOWN THERE.' which is ture, which also reminded me of my grandfather ..
and so he begged, and I beg too,
receive that salvation. good deeds don't really cover up your bad doings, believe it. religions aside.
and now, you earthlings must have gotten bored of my talk here, so I shall go on my UFO. ahahahahahahahaa, actually mom's scolding <.<
^^D
FGA's crusade tonight ROCKS. hahaha , suckers that didnt went serves you right. not like I invited anyone lah. : D but THAT PERSON who backed out last minute, all i have to say is, wasted LAH.
' hell ' seems like a place I even more don't want to go to. not like I want to go to before. and so ,from today onwards.. any jokes on hell won't be entertained. Literally, seriously.
it's irony,
just last week Pastor spoke abt the end of time. yes, spirit man. don't be lazy anymore. read your Bible and pray every day to grow. to not waver in your Faith, that gift from Father. and to follow His footsteps.
back to the crusade today,
the speaker was from Indonesia and he touched a weeny bit abt his unwillingly went trip to hell ,spoke abt the faces he saw, the tortures they went through. and he shouted ,'YOU THINK THOSE PEOPLE ARE DEAD? NO! THEY ARE ALIVE, AND LIVING DOWN THERE.' which is ture, which also reminded me of my grandfather ..
and so he begged, and I beg too,
receive that salvation. good deeds don't really cover up your bad doings, believe it. religions aside.
and now, you earthlings must have gotten bored of my talk here, so I shall go on my UFO. ahahahahahahahaa, actually mom's scolding <.<
20080418
Can you even argue?
we've done our peka report for Bio ytd, and I've found out that saliva can be really sticky, esp. Chi's one I suppose. xD works so superly fast!! 3mins for the first reaction.. super.
today SU had a movie day, so we watched a sermon by.. dunno-who in Texas, which was entitled 'How Great Is Our God'. He spoke about the stars that our God created with just a breath. Look, this is the most hugest star in the whole of universe! oh, I'm not exaggerating at all, darlings.
today SU had a movie day, so we watched a sermon by.. dunno-who in Texas, which was entitled 'How Great Is Our God'. He spoke about the stars that our God created with just a breath. Look, this is the most hugest star in the whole of universe! oh, I'm not exaggerating at all, darlings.
VY Canis Majoris! tada~~
don't you ever underestimate that tiny little shine. if a human could walk on the surface of Canis Majoris – assuming a speed of 5 km/h (3 mph) for 8 hours a day – the person would have to walk for 650,000 years to circle the star (compared with 2 years 11 months to complete the same task on the Earth, and 310 years 7 months on the Sun).
he said that if the Earth was a golf ball, the Canis Majoris is the Mount Everest compared to the golf ball! and I'll tell you how big Mt. Everest and a golf ball is.
a golf ball is 42.67 mm in diameter, says wikipedia and Mt. Everest! it's 8,848 meters above sea level or rather 29,028 feet. want to know how much Earths can be filled in that one star? Go figure.
Then, this is seriously fun. THEN, my dear readers, he said:--
this picture below, look. Please do look.
that, my friends, is the structure of laminin! La-mi-nin. Bet you don't have a clue what in the world is that thing 'cept if you're a biologist or rather if you're super pro abt the human body. Now, what does it do you ask?
that thing, exists in everyone of our human body and is holding every part of your body in place. I don't really know quite how it works because I'm running out of time here as I havent bathed yet even though it's already close to 8pm now, never mind that! that thing.. it holds e-ve-ry-thing together in our body.
SIMILAR,
similar, to a verse in THE Bible which I forgot which verse because he spoke too fast and also because I have a very bad memory. anyway, it is something said in the bible which states that, "in Christ Jesus, we are joined together.. " then something something.. seriously, you can't expect me to remember everything. I suck at this remembering thing.
I think it's in Ephesians 2:21, (:
that's all then, of what I have to say today. oh blast myself, I remembered something! I sliced my hair! ahahahaha. I know I stated this two posts away, but wth? :P
wonderfully, I am made.
all information supplied through wikipedia and google.
20071113
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